ANGELS AT WAR – CHAPTER 19

ANGELS AT WAR

CHAPTER 19

ARCHANGEL QUERIDA

“I SAY TO YOU THAT WHOEVER LOOKS AT A WOMAN TO LUST FOR HER HAS ALREADY COMMITED ADULTERY WITH HER IN HIS HEART.” (Matthew 5:28)

            “You’re too late, my former friend,” Vermillion gloated.

            “Am I?”

            “You are indeed,” he taunted. “The covenant is broken, the indiscreet affair consummated, adultery completed. Never to be undone.”

            “No, they can’t undo it. But it can be forgiven.”

            “Oh wait, I spoke amiss. I suspect that the affair is just beginning not completed. Oh, I know they both tell themselves, ‘just this once.’ But human hormones are a powerful drug, especially when locked into illicit thoughts. You should have been here to stop it, Querida.”

            “You know better than that. We can impress, we can protect, but we can’t get in the way of freewill.”

            He chortled. “Ah freewill, tiz a wonderful thing when coupled with a sinful nature.”

            “It’s a beautiful thing when submitted to God in love.”

            He snorted. “You say trust and obey, I say lust and give way. To the carnal instinct that is. Look how much fun they just had! That was the biggest thrill in years for both of them!”

            “Well, the biggest thrill in years is gone now. They are experiencing guilt and shame on a level like never before.”

            “That’s your side’s fault. We provide the party; you guys are the poopers.”

            “We provide peace and contentment when following God. The law of the Lord is perfect converting the soul. Through the conscience, humans have an instinct leading to a higher purpose.”

            “It’s funny how that works, Querida. When that instinct is ignored, and a person gives themselves over to the forbidden, their doom is sealed.”

            “Not so, they…”

            “What do you mean not so?” Vermillion interrupted. “What about the mark of the beast or the seal of God? When a person gives themselves over to us, we have a seal as well.”

            “As long as they have breath, they have time to repent.”

            “Bah!” Vermillion barked, then laughed maliciously. “You just wait. They’ll rinse and repeat. Speaking of rinsing, look at the extra friendly neighbors now. They are both in their own showers trying to scrub their sin away before their spouses arrive home. Is that how one repents? With soap and water?”

            “It’s a start. They both are aware they have sinned.”

            “They’ll be back at it when the hormones rebuild. Then they will be aware that they tapped into something magical. Illicit brings excitement. Right now they are more worried that they might get caught than sorry that they sinned.”

            “Look at her tears. That’s not worry of being caught, that’s sorrow over betraying a sacred trust.”

            “It’ll pass. Then the recollection of his touch and the sensual sensations she felt will overrule her conscience. The first encounter is in the books after months, yeah years, of resisting. The next encounter will come much, much easier.”

            “We’ll see. There’s a reason for guilt. If she confesses, God will forgive.”

            “What about her husband? Shouldn’t she confess to him as well? Will he be harmonious with his next-door neighbor given such a revelation? Smile and wave as they both mow their lawns? No, Querida, my bet is she will figure what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him. And that reluctance will ultimately make the second encounter much easier. Then a third and a fourth and a fifth, etc, etc. Despite their aggressive cleaning now, it was quite the start a half hour ago.”

            “You know as well as I do that it started with that first look of lust.”

            “Ah, like I said, lust and obey the carnal instinct. Sometimes it just takes time and patience. But a lot of resisted longing makes the coupling all the more intense when it finally happens. Were you here the first time the new neighbors, now lovers, met four years ago? I don’t believe you were, so let me fill you in.”

            “I was made aware,” I cut in.

            The older, established neighbors brought a welcoming gift to the new neighbors sixteen years their junior. The fresh names on the mailbox declared them to be Justin and Jill Phillips. The new neighbors invited their brand new friends in for a beverage. They accepted but said only for a few minutes because they had a golf engagement with some friends.

            As the older female neighbor sat next to her husband on a love seat, that’s when the first looks and thoughts in the secret recesses of the eventual lover’s minds began. Her short golf skirt revealed a lot of shapely leg, and as the younger man approached with a glass of lemonade, his mind told him, ‘She’s got to be forty plus, but she’s in better shape than your wife.’

            The older woman admired the lean, toned runner’s build of the younger man. His stomach was flat behind his gray tucked in polo shirt. She glanced at what looked like a small pillow behind her husband’s green polo shirt.

            The younger couple’s five and three year old sons were tearing around the living room. This motivated the older couple to down their lemonades more quickly than necessary. Then they looked at their watches and excused themselves.

            Although the two neighbors exchanged several waves in the following weeks, it would be a couple months before they actually spoke again. It was on a hot summer day when the older female returned from a run. The younger male had been operating an edger on the sidewalk as she approached. He stopped his work and stepped aside so she could pass. He smiled warmly and said hello.

            Instead of running past, she stopped. Huffing slightly and sweating profusely, she said, “How are things in the new digs?”

            “Great,” Justin replied.

            When she glanced down at her watch, apparently checking her running time, he glanced down as well. He took in her black spandex shorts with matching sports bra that seemed to be painted on. His mind told him, ‘Man, she’s smoking hot, and not just from the run. Yet she’s probably not much younger than my mom.’

            His eyes averted back to her face before her eyes averted back to his. He asked, “Do you run quite a bit?”

            “I do,” she admitted. “It’s become quite an addiction.”

            “I like to run, but between work and the family, it’s hard to find time.”

            “Well, if you ever want to join me, I run almost every day at around this time. Sometimes it makes it easier to get motivated if you have a running partner.”

            “Yeah, I should do just that,” Justin replied nodding. “You sure you wouldn’t mind company?”

            “Not at all, I’d love to have you join me,” A little sultry added to her smile. Her subconscious nagged her mind a little bit after her reply. There was a chemistry between them that she couldn’t put her finger on that Vermillion’s team was pushing. Our side motivated distance.

            “My husband used to run with me, but he has knee problems now.”

            Vermillion inspired Justin’s first bold flirtation, that was encouraged by her sexy smile. “Are you sure your husband won’t mind me getting sweating with his gorgeous wife?”

            She smiled warmly, liking the compliment. Then our side caused caution to enter her mind. Her smile faded and she said, “Considering I’m old enough to be your mother, he won’t mind at all.”

            “There’s no way you’re as old as my mother.”

            She couldn’t help grinning again. She liked the younger man. He had a friendly charm that was appealing, and he was so good looking. Tall dark and handsome was what came to mind to describe him. But she felt ancient in his presence and was sure his mother had him late in life. “Well, let’s see, how old was she when you were born?”

            “Seventeen.”

            Her smile faded again. His mother was only a year older than she was. Yet he had said there was no way she was as old as his mother. That was good, right? But then dawning recognition set in. The younger man had reminded her of someone, but she couldn’t put her finger on it until now. That dark wavy hair and the shape of his blue eyes. She remembered a girl a grade ahead of her who had gotten pregnant the summer between her junior and senior year. “Is your mother’s name Becky Russo?”

            A look of astonishment came over his face. “Well it was. It’s Becky Adler now, but how did you know? Were you high school classmates?”

            “Well, she was a grade ahead of me. I didn’t really know her, I just knew of her.”

            He smiled coyly. “You knew of her because she was a pregnant high schooler.”

            She shrugged and nodded. “Pregnant with you no less, my new neighbor.”

            Then a week later, the younger couple discovered they were expecting again themselves.

            “Like I said, patience, the long game,” Vermillion had told me on numerous occasions throughout our association as opponents.

            I hate to admit it, but he was right. Finding out that Justin’s mother was almost her same age quelled her flirtations with Justin for the time being. His wife being with child again postponed his own feelings of amour.

            Then things shifted over time. Justin’s wife was at one time a cheerleader to his quarterback, and homecoming queen to his king. After two kids she struggled to get into a semblance of shape. After the third child, who they would refer to as an ‘opps,’ she didn’t even try. Yet his frequent jogging partner next door became more sleek and lithe by running religiously.

            Then things shifted again. Not long after the older woman turned fifty, she won first place in her age category in a 5K. The next day Justin called the older neighbor to see if she wanted to go for a run. He went next door, taking his phone with him. “I never got a picture of you wearing your medal.”

            “Oh, it’s no big deal,” she replied modestly. She had only been running in 5K’s for two years with the first one at the younger neighbor’s instigation. “I never won first place in the forties category. Since my birthday was only two months ago, I was probably the youngest in the fifties bracket.”

            “Nonetheless you won first place and I want a picture.”

            She struggled to clasp the medal around her neck, so Justin offered to help her. Then a miscommunication opened the door for their not so secret desires for each other to come to fruition. Although they had always behaved physically, never even exchanging a hug, they often teased each other. This teasing evolved into flirting.

            The older woman handed the medal over to Justin. She had a stiff neck, and when she pulled her ponytail aside to make way for him to clasp the medal, she tilted her head to the left to stretch the tight muscles. The younger neighbor mistook this as an invitation to place his lips on the soft skin just below her jaw.

            She froze with my side telling her mind to tell her mouth to stop this right now and obey the Spirit. But Vermillion’s side kept her locked in indecision. They kept her tantalized with intense carnal sensations. The long standing attraction to each other that they both allowed their minds to indulge in fantasy was now rearing its ugly head in reality. My side sent a hard jab at her conscience. She pushed away from her younger neighbor and said, “We better stop.”

            But her shaky giggle, along with her hands still on his chest communicated something other than her words. Then she allowed herself to waver. “Don’t you think?”

            Justin countered her suggestion. “I saw your husband leave with golf clubs twenty minutes ago. My boys won’t be back from Cub Scouts, and my wife and daughter from play group until seven. Just like you, it crossed my mind that this was our chance.”

            “What do you mean ‘just like me?’”

            He smiled coyly. “You know, offering your neck like that. I got the hint and went with it. Don’t change your mind now.”

            “But I…,” she said as my side tried reasoning with her.

            But Vermillion overwhelmed her with carnal desire. All of her impure thoughts about her younger neighbor came to a boil. But an hour later her shower lasted twice as long with twice the amount of soap than if she would have actually went for a run in the July heat. Her hands trembled off and on as she prepared supper afterward with her mind reeling with anxious, guilty thoughts.

            She kissed her husband when he came home and they hugged. He frowned when they separated. “Why are you shaking?”

            “Oh, am I?” she stammered, then lied. “I don’t know, I guess I over did it this afternoon running so soon after the 5K.”

            “Did Justin go with you?”

            “No,” she blurted. “I mean yeah.”

            “No, yeah,” he laughed. “What kind of answer is that? Either he went or he didn’t.”

            “Well, he wasn’t gonna, but then he changed his mind.”

            She could feel her heart pounding, and it reminded her of the Edgar Allan Poe story, ‘The Tell Tale Heart.’ It was a tale of man who killed an old man and hid him under floorboards. Then his guilty conscience kept hearing the old man’s heart beating louder and louder, even though he was dead. But she didn’t kill anybody. Maybe just her marriage.

            Her husband leaned in toward her, sniffed and frowned. “What’s that smell?”

            Her heart beat still faster! Lies, betrayal, adultery! Just confess right now! Her husband was a reasonable man. They had been married for more than a quarter of a century, and until today she had never so much as kissed another man. She made a mistake; her husband would forgive her. Wouldn’t he? They had built a life together, a good life. She just needed to get serious about God again.

            Okay, she might as well own up to it since he clearly suspected. “There’s something I need to tell you.”

ANGELS AT WAR – CHAPTER 13

ANGELS AT WAR

CHAPTER 13

ARCHANGEL QUERIDA

THROUGH THE LORD’S MERCIES WE ARE NOT CONSUMED, BECAUSE HIS COMPASSIONS FAIL NOT. THEY ARE NEW EVERY MORNING. GREAT IS YOUR FAITHFULNESS. (Lamentations 3:22, 23)

            “Poor Jimmy,” Vermillion mocked. “So new to love and it happens with two women simultaneously. Yet one is likely pregnant by another guy, and the other just related an ugly story he will never forget. Not only the words of the horrific tale, but the tremble of her body with the snot and slobber coming from her pretty face slimming onto his shirt. Look at his body language and how much he’d like to push her away.”

            “But he isn’t pushing her away,” I responded. We watched as he hugged her tighter and kissed the top of her head. She pushed away and looked at him. He pulled his t-shirt up and wiped the tears from her eyes, the mucus from her nose, and saliva from her chin.

            “I’m sorry,” she lamented. “I’m so disgusting.”

            “No big deal, it’s just an old t-shirt” he said with a gentle laugh.    

            “I don’t just mean your shirt.”

            “What happened to you wasn’t your fault.”

            “How can you say that? I drank more than I should have. I flirted and teased inappropriately.”

            “And that gave those guys the right to violate you?”

            Lucy just looked at him with a bewildered expression. So he continued, “I’ve actually been hot and heavy with women before and they have said no. And I respected that no means no. So I’m not gonna excuse those guys even a little bit.”

            “You actually told Lexi no,” Lucy said. He nodded. So she asked, “Was that hard?”

            “It wasn’t easy,” he admitted. “But on the other hand, it was easier than being told no.”

            “Was that the only time you told a girl no?”

            He thought of Jenny and the night she seduced him. He had tried to tell her no for her own sake, but his desire for her overcame his will to behave. “Not exactly. But Lexi was the first time I followed through.”

            “For what it’s worth, it really, really impressed me.”

            He shrugged.

            “I don’t know if I was more pleased because I was jealous,” she continued. “Or because you seemed to have integrity.”

            “You were jealous?” he asked with both a frown and smile.

            “Yes,” she said utterly serious. “I’ve had a bit of a crush on you ever since you moved into this mobile home court last year. Then Lexi started talking about you and how much you were frustrating her. She had never had a guy play hard to get before.”

            “In all honesty, until a few days ago I didn’t know your name. But you and your moped do seem familiar. But now that I know you, I have a bit of crush on you as well.”

            Jimmy frowned. Should he be telling a girl that he had a crush on her when he had a girlfriend? Did he have a girlfriend? Should a girlfriend be making dinner for another man? The other man was likely the grandfather of the baby she was carrying. The other man was a guy she did “stuff with” before she became involved with his son. How was it his love life was never more complicated? He was trying to do right, but everything seemed all wrong.

            “Really? You have a crush on me even after what I told you?”

            “Like I said, it wasn’t your fault. But even if you felt that you played a role in what happened. If I’ve learned anything from these Bible meetings, it’s that God can forgive anything.”

            “Would you believe I’ve never even kissed a guy?”

            “You hang out with Lexi’s gang, and you haven’t dated or fooled around?”

            “The boy that lived next door to me before we moved into the mobile home court has been my boyfriend for almost two years. He’s a year older than me.”

            “You’ve had a boyfriend for two years and you’ve never kissed?”

            “He’s gay, in the closet, and I’m his mask. He’s been with his boyfriend even before we started pretending. It’s worked for me as well. No one pressures me to fool around with guys. They assume I’ve been having regular sex with my so called boyfriend.

            “I see.”

            Lucy’s eyes looked startled. “Opps! I just told you another secret!”

            “You never said his name.”

            “It wouldn’t be hard to find out. Lexi or Amy or any of them could tell you who he is.”

            “Who would I tell?”

            “Your girlfriend,” she replied, but Jimmy waved a dismissive hand. She gave him a little shove. “You need to tell me a secret.”

            “Oh, come on, what, are we in junior high school?”

            She took hold of his hands, and he was surprised at how natural it felt. “Please. Surely a guy like you has some secrets.”

            “A guy like me, what’s that supposed to mean?”

            “I happen to know through Lexi’s infatuation with you, that you were a player. That’s one of the reasons she felt frustrated by your rejection. It was like, what’s wrong with me that I’m not good enough for a womanizer like Jimmy Stetson?”

            “I resent that implication.”

            “You earned it. Now tell me a secret.”

            “Jenny’s pregnant.”

            She dropped her hands from his as a stunned expression came over her face. “Your girlfriend is pregnant?”

            He explained the scenario of him becoming reacquainted with Jenny and how she came to be with child.

            “Wow! So the baby likely isn’t even yours, but you’re gonna treat it as if it is?”

            “We’ll see,” he said with a shrug. That had been his original plan, but so much seemed up in the air now. His old lifestyle. The new direction he seemed to be heading with his newfound interest in the Bible. Larry nudging back into Jenny’s life. Jenny not seeming all that interested in what they were learning at the Bible meetings. And now this infatuation with Lucy. This desire to protect her, which felt similar to his desire to protect Jenny.

            Lucy looked over his shoulder into the distance. She wore a vacant expression. Then her brown eyes with gold flecks took on a glassy, watery appearance. Jimmy waited and she eventually looked at him. “Can I tell you another secret?”

            “Sure,” he replied quietly.

            “Those guys in Florida,” she said and then paused.

            She seemed to be waiting for a response, so he replied, “A huh.”

            “They didn’t use protection.”

            His first thought was an STD. But when the tears spilled from her eyes, he knew what was about to come out of her mouth. “I got pregnant.”

            He uneasily stuffed his hands into the back pockets of his jeans. “I see… When is it due?”

            “There is no due date. I got an abortion.”

            She put her face into her hands and began to sob. He reached to pull her in for a hug but recalled her saying ‘don’t touch.’ But then she said ‘no, do hug me.’ He opted for words instead. “It’s okay.”

            “It’s okay? No, it’s not okay! How can you say getting pregnant by your rapists is okay? How can you say killing your baby is okay?”

            “Poor choice of words,” he replied. “I didn’t know what else to say.”

            “That’s because I’m vile, disgusting and dirty.”

            “No, you’re not!” he said more aggressively than he intended, But it was the right move. She stopped crying and looked at him with wonder. “You were the victim of a violent crime. Don’t give me you teased them and flashed them. Guys go to strippers all the time and don’t track them down and rape them. Remember what the pastor ended with tonight? God’s forgiveness cleanses us.”

            He was encouraged when she nodded slightly. She sat against his Chevy Chevette and began to rummage in her small purse. She pulled out a joint and lit it, inhaling deeply, then coughed.

            “Here we go, Querida,” Vermillion began to boast. “This is where the advantage shifts to me. Get them off track before they get on track.”

            “Maybe,” I admitted, and then paraphrased Philippians 1:6. “But He who began a good work in them will finish it.”

            “Well, my former friend, I’m gonna abort that plan just like Lucy aborted her baby.”

            “They’ve already tasted and seen that the Lord is good.” (Psalm 34:8)

            “Ah, but life is bitter. And complex. Look over there, Querida. Larry is kissing Jenny on the cheek as he leaves. Oops, he caught the corner of her mouth. Hee, hee, hee. With her blush and shy smile, he thinks she caught the corner of his mouth on purpose. Hee, hee, hee. Now he’s kissing her full on the lips. Oh what a good girl, gently pushing him away like that. But her bashful giggle and fluttering eyelids just told him, not now… But maybe.

            “Now let’s see how loosey goosey Lucy and Jimmy get with that little stick of rolled up weed, Querida. Now that Larry’s gone, Jenny wants to make sure everything is good between her Jimmy. Are you gonna stop Jenny? Are you gonna stop Lucy and Jimmy?”

            He knew that I couldn’t stop them. Distract, inspire, impress, yes things like that. He also knew in most ways he had the advantage. His side controlled the wide gate, that most go through. My side controlled the narrow gate which sadly fewer in number find. (See Matthew 7:13, 14)                       

            But when a person submits to God, they are an unstoppable force. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. But the key is submitting to God. (See James 4:7). Unfortunately, for the moment anyway, Lucy and Jimmy were in the process of shutting the door on the light.

            Jimmy had only occasionally smoked marijuana; the last time being more than a year ago. By Lucy’s coughing, he could tell she wasn’t overly experienced herself. He intuited she had only recently started smoking pot to escape the emotional pain from her spring break ordeal.

            She extended the wacky tobacky to Jimmy. He took it and sat next to her. As a cigarette smoker he did not cough after taking a drag. Inebriating substances are a big time deception. The early euphoria is often replaced with addiction. As one Guns-n-Roses song proclaimed, ‘I used to do a little but a little wouldn’t do it so a little got more and more. I just kept trying to get a little better, said a little better than before.’

            “Where did you get this?” Jimmy asked. “You are a feisty little gal, but this does surprise me big time.”

            “It’s a secret. I can’t betray my dealer,” she replied and then giggled. Then he giggled, then they laughed so hard they were rocking two and fro and back and forth. After a few minutes of this, they settled into a mellow zone out for several more minutes.

            Then Lucy hoped up suddenly and declared, “I better go.”

            Jimmy arose as well. “Going to the meeting tomorrow?”

            “A huh.”

            “Why don’t you swing by, and we can ride there together on your moped.”

            This idea gave them another round of laughing. Then she said completely serious, “Maybe you could pick me up.”

            “I better not, I have a girlfriend.”

            “Do you?”

            “I don’t know.” This comment caused yet more chortling.

            “Since you don’t know, would you mind kissing me?”

            “I certainly wouldn’t mind, but I probably shouldn’t.”

            She nodded and he noticed a look of sadness spread into her countenance. He knew what she was thinking. I’m vile, I’m dirty, I’m disgusting. So he said, “One friendly kiss wouldn’t hurt though.”

            He was six foot one compared to her five foot four. So he leaned down and put his lips to hers. He intended it to only be a second long peck. But her arm draped over his neck as he began to pull away. So he kissed her again, and her right arm joined her left. Then his hands went around her waist, and they stayed connected for a minute or two before Jimmy was only vaguely aware of a car approaching.

            The gray Monte Carlo stopped at his driveway, drawing his full attention. He broke the lip lock with Lucy and looked into the surprised face of Jenny, her mouth agape with astonishment.

ANGELS AT WAR – CHAPTER 5

ANGELS AT WAR

CHAPTER 5

ARCHANGEL QUERIDA

FOR WHO KNOWS WHAT IS GOOD FOR A MAN IN LIFE, ALL THE DAYS OF HIS VAIN LIFE WHICH HE PASSES LIKE A SHADOW? WHO CAN TELL A MAN WHAT WILL HAPPEN AFTER HIM UNDER THE SUN? (Ecclesiastes 6:12)

            “That a boy,” Vermillion said with malicious delight as Jimmy Stetson eyed the pretty blonde. Only he was studying her back side, not her hair follicles.

            “Christians like to talk of being thankful,” Vermillion told me. “Well Querida, I’m thankful for the sexual instinct. It is so easy to get humans to stray from the intended purpose of love and procreation, and into the ecstasy of lust.”

            Jimmy had just departed a record store at the mall. Music stores were quite prevalent in 1990. Lexi Bennet and her bestie had exited the clothing store directly across just a couple seconds ahead of him. Jimmy knew Lexi because she had lived next door to his sister for the last eight years. Vermillion encouraged him to become hypnotized by her Calvin Klein Jeans as she walked. Several times my former friend encouraged with the quiet mantra, ‘Little Lexi is now sexy Lexi.’

            As they left the mall, Lexi held the door for Jimmy. They made eye contact and her face lit up. “Oh hey! You’re Jill Kennon’s brother.”

            “I am,” he replied with a charming smile.

            “Jake, right?”

            “Jake’s our brother, I’m,” he almost called himself Jim, but wanted to appear closer to her age. Not that his twenty-two to her eighteen was that big of a difference. Not now anyway. But when he was eighteen and she was fourteen? Out of the question. “I’m Jimmy.”

            “Cool.”

            “So I understand you graduated high school last month.”

            “I did,” she beamed.

            “So what are you gonna do with your life?” he asked as they walked onto the parking lot.

            She giggled. “Now you sound like my dad.”

            Oh no, he didn’t want to go that direction! “I’m not prying, just curious.”

            “I’m gonna go to Kirkwood part time for now, until I decide what I want to do,” she said, referring to the local community college. “Plus I work at Younkers,” she told him, referring to the department store at the other end of the mall.

            “Nice,” he said as he threw a leg over a maroon Yamaha Vmax.

            “Wow, is this yours?”

            “No, I’m stealing it,” he joked.

            She gave his upper arm a playful shove, then aimed a flirtatious smile at him. “Will you give me a ride sometime?”

            “Absolutely. When?”

            “How about now? Give me a ride home? I’m sure you know where I live.”

            “Sure,” he replied happily. Oh how he loved his motorcycle! It sometimes picked up girls for him.

            She looked at her dark haired dark eyed friend. “Do you mind?”

            “Go for it,” she replied with a coy smile. “I’ll call you later about the party tonight.”

            “Awesome,” Lexi replied as she climbed on behind Jimmy. She was a little clumsy, having never ridden on a motorcycle before.

            As Lexi hugged Jimmy’s back side, he grinned at what a wonderful tool a motorcycle was for making time with the ladies. But as he cruised down Lexi’s street, his smile faded when he spotted his sister in her flower bed in front of her house. What was she doing home from work? Was it possible she wouldn’t notice?

            “Did you arrange that with Jimmy’s sister, or was it just chance?” Vermillion asked me as we watched the mini drama play begin.

            I just responded with what humans would consider a shrug. It’s impossible to explain the invisible realm. As deep as the Bible is, The Good Book is only a glimpse of the depths of God. ‘Can you search out the deep things of God? Can you find out the limits of the almighty? (Job 11:7). Even the sharpest people have a dim comprehension of spiritual things. ‘For they see through a mirror dimly.’ (1 Corinthians 13:12)

            “That was fun!” Lexi cooed into Jimmy’s ear. “Hey, do you want to go to a party tonight?”

            Perspectives could be hard to figure out. Twenty minutes ago Jimmy figured that Lexi’s and his age difference wasn’t much. But now, the thought of a party with a group of recent high school graduates would make him feel like a grandpa. “Thanks, but I don’t think so, Lexi.”

            She had climbed off his bike as he made his reply. She leaned in and placed a hand just above his knee. With a low sultry voice, she said, “Are you sure? I’ll make it worth your while.”

            Carnal desire stirred within him. Talk about a subtle, but not so subtle hint. She seemed to stick out her chest which was wrapped in a tight spaghetti strap top. His eyes wanted to feast on the lustful sight, but he glanced toward his sister in the neighboring yard instead.

            Vermillion caused her to focus on the weeds in her flower bed. I tried to have her ear catch her brother’s motorcycle as it pulled into Lexi’s driveway. Vermillion won. But a friend of Lexi’s passed in a car. Vermillion caused a glitch with her radio, trying to distract her from Lexi and her suitor. But right before her eyes diverted to the audio device, she caught sight of her gal pal with the studly fellow and honked.

            Jill Kennon glanced at the noise, and then back to her flower garden. Then her brain registered the familiar sight in her neighbor’s driveway, causing her to do a double take. She saw little Lexi Bennet leaning in close to her brother. Jimmy, wearing a sheepish smile, waved at his sibling.

            Jill stood, faced the couple, and began to march toward them. But instead of using one of her hands to return the greeting, she placed them on her hips. Lexi grinned happily and waved vigorously. “Hi, Mrs. Kennon. I ran into Jimmy at the mall and he was nice enough to give me a ride.”

            “So I see,” she replied with a fake smile. “He is so incredibly nice and thoughtful… Say brother dear, would you mind coming over and help me start my lawnmower? It pulls hard.”

            “I’ll be seeing you, Lex.”

            “I hope so,” she said with a coy smile.

            Did he hear his sister say, ‘No, you won’t.’

            Jimmy started his motorcycle and drove it one hundred feet and into his sister’s driveway. As he walked toward her garage, he said, “It doesn’t look like your lawn needs mowed.”

            “It doesn’t. Can you do me a favor and keep your hands off my young neighbor?”

            “My hands weren’t on her.”

            “Hers were on you?”

            “What can I say?” he grinned.

            “You can say you’ll stay away from my young neighbor. There are plenty of fish in the sea, so please keep away from little Lexi.”

            “Little Lexi is now sexy Lexi,” he joked, wiggling his eyebrows.

            Jill glared at her brother with hands on hips once again. How is it you could love somebody, but often dislike them, she wondered?

            “Come on, maybe I’m looking for love,” he grinned.

            “Looking for love in all the wrong places,” his sister sang the once popular country song. She had a good voice. The grin left his face. Why did he suddenly think of Jenny as she sang?

            “You just made him think of Jenny,” Vermillion declared, then shrugged. “I’m okay if he fornicates with her some more. Lead her even further away from the God she once knew.  But watch this. Guys are so easy to switch from feelings of love to lust.”

            Through his sisters garage window, Jimmy caught movement in Lexi’s back yard. His sister’s eighteen year old neighbor, in the fresh flush of womanhood, walked into her back yard wearing only a tiny red bikini. How did she change so fast? She kicked off her flip flops and lay on a fold out lawn chair. She almost seemed to aim her body at the garage window.

            Jill noticed her brother’s trance and said, “Let’s go in and have some lemonade.”

            “I’m good.”

            “I said lets go inside and have some lemonade!”

            “Yes, master,” Jimmy mocked.

            Jill cleared some newspapers off her kitchen table. I thought about telling Vermillion to ‘watch this’ but didn’t. My job was to minister to souls, not exchange banter with my opponent in the task. A colorful paper fell to the floor, catching Jimmy’s eye.

            He frowned after he picked it up. Prominently displayed was a strange looking creature from Revelation chapter thirteen. It had seven heads and ten horns. Above and below this beast stated ‘Who is the antichrist? Is hellfire a place or an event? Are we living in the end times? Can the Bible be trusted? Do you want to understand Bible prophecy? Please join us for a ten part series at Kennedy High School auditorium.’ Then it listed dates, the first beginning that very evening at 7pm.

            Vermillion looked concerned at first. But then he nodded happily when Jimmy showed his sister the paper. “No don’t,” I petitioned. “Do,” Vermillion countered.

            “What’s this?” Jimmy asked Jill.

            She shrugged. “I don’t know, I found it in my door the day before yesterday. Just something from some religious fanatics I suppose. I meant to throw it away.”

            Jimmy tossed it back onto the table. If his sister thought it was bogus, it probably was. She was a much better person. Although he never knew her to study a Bible, she did religiously put an hour a week in at church with her family. She grabbed the brochure her brother discarded, crumpled it, and tossed it into the garbage.

            “That’s it,” Vermillion beamed. “Good job, Jill.”

            I shrugged. At least a seed might have been planted. The best hope for germination was with Jenny. But it was a precarious situation, what with her pregnancy and all. Not to mention her back slidden state of mind. It was a long shot to be sure.

            That same afternoon, Jenny laid down for a nap. She hadn’t been sleeping good ever since her pregnancy diagnosis. One of the things that kept her up at night was thoughts of Jimmy. She had such remorse about her behavior that drunken night. The way she seduced him. The way he was so hesitant when she threw herself at him in her apartment. She vowed to herself never to drink again.

            She wondered if she wasn’t pretty enough for him, and that’s why he was so hesitant. She had seen some of his girlfriends. They were gorgeous, like they stepped out of a men’s magazine. But that night after Trixie dressed her in some of her clothes, she looked at least close to the girls Jimmy dated, maybe even on par. After all, plenty of other guys noticed. Liquored up men don’t seem to hide their leering.

            So why was he so reluctant when she practically threw herself at him? Actually, no practically about it, she out right threw herself at Jimmy. Then he frowned, groaned, rubbed his face and said her name like a regret. Regardless, he slowly undressed and he became one of two possibilities as the father of her child. She wondered if he slept with her out of some perverse form of pity.

            She rolled onto her side and Vermillion began to give her a nightmare, although it was daytime. I caused a car to backfire and she awoke, lifted her head for a moment, then rolled onto her other side, and muttered ‘Lord help me.’ I blocked a second attempt by Vermillion with a dream of my own.

            Jenny had been absorbed with the negative that happened with Jimmy. In her night vision, although it was day, I had her recall a few of his words when they were reacquainted and then had them echo in her head. “I liked the old Jenny better.”

            The dream gave Jenny the resolve she needed to face Jimmy. Instead of a mini dress that rode high up her thigh and low on her chest, she put on a knee length tan and white gingham dress. Tennis shoes and ankle socks replaced the black stockings and pumps. Instead of poofy hair like an 80’s hair band, she pulled it back and secured it with a hair clip. Instead of makeup plastered on like cake frosting, just a little lip gloss.

            Twenty minutes later, with her heart thumping a little faster than usual, she stood on the steps of the mobile home Jimmy shared with a buddy. Jimmy was laying on his back on his bed, hands behind his head when he heard the knocking. His roommate wasn’t home to answer, but he didn’t feel like getting up. Probably just some type of soliciting.

            His mind was tormented. He kept hearing sexy Lexi say, ‘I’ll make it worth your while.’ Then he would think of his encounter with Jenny Oakley the previous weekend. Every time it made him a little sick. How could he have taken advantage of her like that? He knew she was drunk. She sure had changed, a complete one eighty. She wasn’t who he thought she was.

            Jenny had been the most beautiful girl he had ever known. At a casual glance, she was a plain Jane. But in reality, she had a wholesome beauty. And it was the things that were the opposite of the norm that made her so appealing. Her milky white skin, so feminine and lush, yet always modestly covered, only providing a mysterious glimpse of a calf, ankle, forearm or occasionally a shoulder. Her silky hair was too sandy to call her a brunette, but too dark to be blonde. Her round grey eyes, always so serious, making her cute rather than striking.

            But it was her personality that had made her so compelling, coupled with her loveliness. She was so sweet and unassuming. She had such a quiet dignity and inner strength. He knew she had been teased about the conservative way she dressed. They called her things like Laura Ingalls, or Amish girl. Yet it seemed to roll off of her like a duck shedding water. But apparently it hadn’t.

            How did she change so drastically? That sensible girl, who looked like she walked off the set of the Walton’s or Little House On the Prairie. He thought for sure that she was the type to hold out sex for marriage. Instead, she’s now a party girl who dresses like a stripper and apparently has no problem with one night stands. What a shame, what a waste! But what was he?

            More knocking. He mumbled, “Just go away.”

            He thought of a clothing incident when he shared a lab table with her in science class the last trimester of their senior year. It came with only days left in the school year. A split in her long denim skirt had shifted, and as she sat with her leg crossed over the other, it exposed most of her leg and more than half of her thigh.

            It was much less skin revealed than a cheerleader exposed, yet to him it was more alluring. Why? He supposed because it had been a mystery hidden for almost a dozen weeks. She also looked more lovely than lustful as she concentrated on finals, her soft lips gently nibbling on her pencil.

            He had never known a more beautiful woman than eighteen year old Jenny Oakley. Even more so than eighteen year old sexy Lexi. Yet if the two were walking down opposite sides of a street, probably ten out of ten guys were checking out Lexi.

            Now the twenty-two year old Jenny Oakley was another story. It would probably be fifty, fifty. It all depended on whether a guy preferred a toned Sports Illustrated swim suit model with Lexi. Or if a guy preferred a curvy, sexy stripper type with Jenny. Oh Jenny, why? How could you change so drastically?

            More knocking. When would they go away?

            Something occurred to him. “Hey, maybe it’s Lexi!”

            He sprang from his bed. She could make it worth his while now! Then he wouldn’t have to endure a party with a bunch of teenagers. He peeked out of the window to see just who the knocker was. He reeled back a couple steps when he saw it was Jenny! And she was dressed like the old Jenny rather than the sexpot from last week.

            What was she doing here? He figured she would be more ashamed than he, at least at facing each other again. He had never felt anxiety about facing a former fling until Jenny. He was torn about how he felt. He didn’t understand what he felt. Why did he both want to go back to his bedroom and wait her out, and open the door to see what she had to say? He wondered if she was here for another romp in the sack, or to scold him for taking advantage of her inebriated state? Since she was dressed similar to their high school days, rather than a hooker, probably the latter.

            He went to a closer window to get a better look. Ever so gently he peeled open the curtain about an inch. When he peered out, a wave of anxiety soared through him as her two wide round gray-blue eyes were looking right at his lone eyeball!

            Vermillion laughed as we watched Jimmy. The cackle was as if my opponent was saying checkmate. He felt confident their dialogue would lead to one of two possibilities. If Jimmy encouraged abortion, then maybe that would lead to Jenny ending her own life as well.

            If adoption, Vermillion would brew a stew of emotional support with a main ingredient of lust. This would get them fornicating some more. Then he would somehow get sexy Lexi in Jimmy’s path and cause a terrible triangle. With Jenny feeling so vulnerable, either direction could put her over the edge of despair. It looked like a win, win for my diabolical opponent.

            ‘The devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.’ (1 Peter 5:8)

            But we angels never give up. In other words, it ain’t over till it’s over. Besides, I had some intel that my former friend wasn’t aware of.