A SAINT IN SIN CITY

SAUL SALLIE

CHAPTER 13

ENTER BY THE NARROW GATE, FOR WIDE IS THE GATE AND BROAD IS THE WAY THAT LEADS TO DESTRUCTION, AND THERE ARE MANY WHO GO IN BY IT (Matthew 7:13)

The most common question I get asked is “did you see yourself one day being at the forefront of a major spiritual and political controversy?” The simple answer is yes. When I took a stand for the law of God, I had already reached a certain level of fame, due to my baseball career. So I knew, whether I welcomed it or not, I was to be thrust on a platform to answer for my faith. The only thing I didn’t know was the duration of time, or how prominent. I realized I was putting my promising baseball career in jeopardy, but I believed whole heartedly in what Jesus said in Matthew 16:26.

When I realized the truth about the Biblical Sabbath back in 2022, the topic of the Sabbath and Sunday had become a minor political issue, overlooked by the vast majority. It came to light in November of that year when many spiritual and political leaders had convened on the environment and discussed the “green commandments” or “the climate justice ten commandments.” Prominent among these ideas was the agenda to bring about a mandatory day of rest. Since most religionists adhere to the venerable day of the sun, Sunday was chosen as the day designated for everyone to shut down and give the planet a rest.

Because I’m a prominent sports figure, I was reluctantly put in a position as a spokesperson for the genuine Sabbath. Although I felt unqualified and unworthy, I also deemed it an honor to stand up for God’s truth.

I never felt more secure in God’s arms than when I refused to pitch on the Sabbath in the World Series. I was despised by so many, who didn’t understand my position and felt I was being arrogant by bucking against Sunday laws. But it was also during this time that I felt closest to my true brothers and sisters in Christ, valuing and needing their fellowship like never before.

“Don’t you care about the planet?” I have been asked more times than I can count.

“Of course I do,” was and still is my reply.

“Then why are you rebelling against the Sunday law?” they demanded. “It’s for the good of humanity and the planet.”

That’s the evil genius of Satan. He uses something good to force people into allegiance to a false commandment. But if my accusers examined their judgements of me a little closer, they would see that my life gives the planet more of a rest than their own. At the moment, I keep two sabbaths.

The first one, ordained by God, is from sundown Friday to sundown Saturday. This I choose to keep out of love for my Creator and Savior Jesus Christ. The second one, Sunday, the first day of the week, I keep by the dictates of civil law.

This is not a sin. But due to the crime and chaos in the world, there is now talk of requiring people to digitally log onto a Sunday service if you can’t attend one in person. Some of my fellow Sabbatarians see this also as no sin as long as you still keep the fourth commandment written with God’s own finger. Maybe. But I see a big difference between not driving my car on Sunday, and, in a sense, bowing down to the god of the world.

People surprise you. I’ve already witnessed several who I believed to be firm as a rock, giving into “the man.” Why? Fear? Prosperity? Lack of faith? A form of Godliness that denies the power? (2 Timothy 3:5)

Then there was Steve Simon, a teammate of mine who was an atheist. Although we got along just fine, we had many a debate over life views that left us far from being good buddies. However, when tribulation came my way and many who I thought were friends turned on me, Steve had my back. He paid me a visit not long after I became a national pariah for refusing to pitch in the World Series on the Sabbath.

The crux of our occasional spiritual conversations over the years centered around Steve promoting and defending evolution, while I promoted and defended Creationism. When we got together one day and he admitted his life view was evolving into one similar to mine, I didn’t see it as any sort of personal victory. I saw it as a soul making its way to the Savior. You might say, I was simply an instrument God used. Steve’s own words were even humbling.

“You convinced me,” Steve blurted, not long after we sat down with cups of sparkling waters and exchanged some small talk. He was an easy going fellow, in appearance a bit of a modern hippie with long dark hair and a beard long enough he often braided it. His light brown eyes always seemed relaxed, and inviting. He is also a vegetarian and very health conscious.

“Oh yeah?” I replied with both a smile and a frown. “I told you this water was good,” I joked.

“It is, but that’s not what I’m talking about.”

“Oh yeah?” I replied again.

“Yeah, you remember after we won the west division. Everyone went out partying, but you and me stayed in our hotel room, talked, and downed these,” he replied, grinning and holding up his bottle of sparking water.

“Oh yeah,” I replied again, as I tried to figure out what I said, and what exactly I convinced him of.

“You might not have convinced me, if you weren’t such a humble guy,” he told me.

“Oh yeah,” I replied yet again, proving what an articulate guy I am.

“Yeah, it was two things you told me, combined with the stand you took for your beliefs.”

“What two things?” I asked, forcing myself not to say ‘oh yeah’ again.

“The first had to do with evolution. When I mentioned proof that the world was millions of years old, compared to your belief that it is only six thousand. You said, God is eternal, that’s even more than millions or billions. Who knows what he used when he spoke our world into existence?”

“We’ve discussed those differences a few times,” I said with a shrug.

“You said something different with it this time.”

“Oh y… What’s that?”

“You said, if the earth has been around millions, even billions of years, think about how miraculous the times we’re living in are. Man took flight a little more than a hundred years ago. Now people are crisscrossing the planet on jets, kind of like Daniel 12:4 predicted. Not to mention the highway system. Then you have mind blowing technology, like people walking around with little computers in their pockets. And what about the population? Do you remember those stats?”

“I think so,” I replied. “The world population hit one billion for the first time in 1804. Then a mere one hundred and twenty three years later, it hit two billion in 1927. Only thirty three years after that, three billion. Only fourteen years after that, four billion. I can’t remember when it hit five, six, and seven billion.”

“But I got the point,” Steve said. “I don’t know why, but all that got me thinking about something else you brought to my mind. That Jesus, regardless of the Bible, is a real historical person. That scores of people witnessed his miracles. I can’t deny that, but I also don’t buy into the Bible.”

His eyes bore into mine, and I knew I should say something. “I see. Maybe we should sit down and let the Bible verify itself.”

“You’re on,” Steve said with a grin. I couldn’t tell if there was a challenge in his smile or an eagerness to learn.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MASON MAXWELL

CHAPTER 12

I KNOW THE THOUGHTS THAT I THINK TOWARD YOU, SAYS THE LORD, THOUGHTS OF PEACE AND NOT OF EVIL. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Life is a strange trip. When things were going good in my life, my faith in God was superficial. My belief was like an insurance policy. But looking back now, my policy was fraudulent. I had cleaned up the dirtier aspects of my life, and was led to feel that I was alright. I gave to charities and was considered a solid citizen.

But I rarely cracked open a Bible. My Christian faith was exercised by attending Sunday services and an occasional mid-week Bible study, hosted by the team chaplain. Then my life was turned upside down, seemingly right side up, and then upside down again.

First was the sudden, unexpected death of my wife. Then there was that crazy World Series with me the hero and Saul the goat. And by goat, I don’t mean greatest of all time. I was shown adulation for promoting a false doctrine that credited my deceased wife for helping me pitch a perfect game. On the other hand, Saul, our ace pitcher, was lambasted for not pitching on the Biblical Sabbath.

At the time, I respected him for standing up for his beliefs, while at the same time thinking he was a fanatic. But now I believe the Sabbath is not only a true doctrine, but the one commandment out of the ten that instructs us to remember. Not only remember, but to keep something holy.

Shortly after my heroics in the World Series, my life was capsized in a most humiliating manner. The impregnation of my wife’s sister by me became public knowledge and national gossip. What made this so scandalous, was the fact that she was another man’s wife at the time.

Although I thought I felt bad for Saul when he was ostracized, I didn’t lose any sleep over it. The side of me that had enjoyed being adored to his despised overruled the side of me that had empathy for him. Then I became hated myself. But it was the remorse, the anxiety, and the depression I felt in the aftermath, that led to the foot of the cross. For me, prosperity equaled shallow, and trouble equaled hunger for truth.

One part of me sought Jesus weeping and sorry for my sins. On the other hand, I had major bouts with anger, frustration, confusion, and doubts. But it was through the crucible of struggle that my eyes were opened to Biblical truth. I came to realize that no matter how materialistically successful we are, we have nothing without Christ.

I also came to realize how subtle the devil works. He leaves alone professed Christians who subconsciously think they have arrived. People who say they believe the Bible, but let tradition and human reasoning overrule Biblical truth. I was one of them, so I know how diabolically it works.

It’s been said, don’t despise what brings you to your knees. My personal question on this is, what did the person who coined this phrase go through themselves? It seems to me that personal losses tends to drive more people away from God than bring them to Him. It did me at first. But the Holy Spirit kept driving me to my knees, to my Bible, and to the council of my friend Saul. Maybe that’s it.

The Bible talks repeatedly about Christ in you. But it seems like very few people end up as human mirrors of the Savior. But I saw Christ in Saul. By that, I mean it was evident that Saul was fully surrendered to God. He experienced that death to self the Apostle Paul talks about. What a witness it was to me.

When I experienced my public disgrace, I was beyond rattled. I was constantly nervous, anxious, and dreaded being seen by anyone. A couple days after Saul was supposedly disgraced, he was as calm and filled with joy as ever. By Saul’s disgrace, I mean the appearance of disgrace by “the world”. In reality, I believe he was honored by heaven. ‘Well done good and faithful servant.’

Anyway, it led me to want that peace and joy Saul had. When I hit rock bottom, I realized that God is ultimately the only answer in life. The only way. Jesus even calls Himself that. ‘The way, the truth, and the life.’ (John 14:6) So I did what Saul did to obtain his righteous character with Bible study and prayer. More than once, I heard Saul say that prayer is the better half of study. It was working, too!

But I had one spiritual hang up that came to the forefront of my mind prominently for the first time. Hellfire. How could a God of love sentence even the most wicked to eternal torment? It was the ultimate contradiction. That brought me to my face off with Saul.

“Mace, come in, come in,” Saul greeted me as I stepped through the door of his home. He had warned me that the subject I wanted to talk about might make him mad, but he greeted me with the same joy in his countenance that I had come to expect.

We chatted briefly, and then I got to the heart of the matter. “So, we’re gonna discuss hell, right?”

“You bet,” Saul replied, his usual, affable grin leaving his face. Maybe I would see the anger he was talking about. Or maybe the irony of hell and a loving God troubled him as well.

We prayed, opened our Bibles, and Saul asked, “So, you believe the wicked, the lost, have eternal life?”

“Well, no,”  I blurted, and then felt myself frown. “I mean…”

Saul went on to compare hellfire at the end of the world to the flood in Noah’s day. He said, “I believe people will be punished according to their sins, but ultimately, it will destroy them quickly. It is also mostly reserved for Satan and his angels. Let’s read about it in Revelation chapter twenty.”

“What about where the Bible says the wicked receive everlasting punishment?” I tried.

“Punishment, not punishing,” Saul clarified. “This also another reason why understanding the state of the dead is important. Once again, what’s the point of the resurrection at Christ’s second coming, if you fly right off to heaven as soon as you die? After the final judgement, the wicked are obliterated, not eternally tormented. Let’s look at some scripture on what happens to the lost.”

We looked up: Romans 6:23, “death.” Job 21:30, “doom, or destruction.” Psalm 37:20, “perish.” Malachi 4:1, “burn up.” Psalm 37:38 “destroyed.” Psalm 37:20 “vanish away.” Psalm 37:9 “cut off.” Psalm 62:3 “slain.” Psalm 145:20 “destroy” Psalm 21:9 “devour.” 2 Peter 3:10 “melt with fervent heat, burn up.” Isaiah 47:14 “be as stubble.”  Ezekiel 18:20 “the soul that sins shall die.” Revelation 20:14 “second death.” Revelation 21:4 “no more pain.”

By the time I left Saul’s house, I happily told him, “I’m sold. When can we study prophecy?”

“I thought you’d never ask,” Saul grinned.

I was about to find out that the last events of prophecy were being fulfilled right before my eyes. As a matter of fact, what was happening to Saul and the Sabbath, was all part of it. I had believed, like most Christians, Daniel and Revelation was mostly in the future. The truth is, it was mostly in history with the last events coming at us faster than I realized.

(Writer’s note: For a more in depth study of these topics, please look up ‘Amazing Facts’ ministry. They have plenty of books, resources, and study guides. You can also simply check out Amazing Facts main teacher, Doug Batchelor, on YouTube.)

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MASON MAXWELL

CHAPTER 11

THE HOUR IS COMING IN WHICH ALL WHO ARE IN THE GRAVES WILL HEAR HIS VOICE (John 5:29)

“Mace, check your nose, you got one hanging,” Saul had said into my ear, just moments before I did a worldwide press conference about the perfect game I had just pitched in game six of the World Series.

My point here is that a real friend tells you the truth. I know what caused the booger. Everyone had been slapping hands, and hugging me in the clubhouse. Someone’s strong cologne had caused me to sneeze. Then I had received congratulations from eight or ten more teammates. I had noticed a strange look on a couple faces. I also thought it was odd that Saul offered a hand not even two minutes after he already had hugged me.

But it wasn’t more felicitations he offered when he pulled me toward himself and put his mouth to my ear. No, my good buddy wanted to save me embarrassment before I went on national TV to talk about the twenty seven batters I caused to return to the dugout.

Why were the others silent? Too awkward? Too embarrassing? Did they think it would be funny?

I was grateful that Saul told me the truth about my obstructed nasal passage. I was also grateful that he told me the truth about the state of the dead. Just not in the moment. No, at the time I was angry. I had taken comfort when I thought my deceased wife had come to me. But I was also troubled by a couple of things.

First of all, it was more like a dream than a visit with a real human being. It left me longing for something more substantial. It made me miss her even more than I already did if that’s possible. This longing was one of the ingredients that lead me into the adulterous arms of her sister, a woman who was so similar to my Beth.

This incident led to the thing that bothered me the most. After Becky and I gave into temptation, the thought that Beth had somehow, some way, witnessed our indiscretion sickened me. It also angered me when I begged her to come to me, to forgive me, and she seemingly stayed away.

It may sound strange, but the intellectual realization that Beth was in a forever sleep, awaiting the resurrection, reminded me of when I knew the truth about Santa Claus. You see, as a little kid, I was sad and angry then also. I wanted to still believe that the jolly, white bearded man was somehow miraculously visiting every child’s home with a sack full of gifts. His reindeer clattered on the roof, yet not waking anyone.

My older sister had told me the truth about Saint Nick back then. But whereas Saul had done it regretfully, my pesky sister had done it maliciously. After shopping with our mother, she had pointed out the two different Santas we had seen. One was skinnier than the other. He also had a grey beard as opposed to the heftier Santa’s white beard.

But I needed further proof. I had waited up until I heard a noise in the living room. Upon investigation, I discovered my mother filling our Christmas stockings. I couldn’t remain silent. “Mom, what are you doing?”

Mother looked startled as she turned her gaze on me. Then a sad sympathy came over her countenance. “Oh Mason, you didn’t really believe in Santa, did you?”

I recall a strange mixture of thoughts and emotions. I was angry, I was sad, I was confused, I was ashamed at being duped, and I felt betrayed. I also believe that Santa Claus was instrumental in my struggles with faith. My mother led me to believe that Santa was real, knowing one day that I would find out that he wasn’t. At the same time, she taught me that God was real, paradoxically hoping I would believe this my whole life.

There were two things Saul had said to convince me about what the Bible teaches on death. One was the Lazarus situation when Jesus raised him from the dead. Our Savior referred to Lazarus’s state as a sleep. Also, after Lazarus was brought back to life, why wasn’t he filled with stories of heaven and an afterlife? Second was what is the point of a resurrection if we are whisked off to heaven the moment we die?

After my volatile conversation with Saul, I went on a three day getaway to Florida. Just to be clear, I was volatile, while Saul was, as usual, calm and composed. It seemed every waking hour just north of Miami, I was either studying my Bible and concordance by the ocean, or playing golf. I became mostly convinced that Saul was right, yet I had some reservations.

My biggest reservation was a sunburn. Let me explain. I was born and raised in Minnesota. It just doesn’t seem like you should get sunburned in the winter. I know, I know, but I never claimed to be the sharpest tool in the shed. So I wasn’t very diligent with sunscreen, and came away with the worst sunburn of my life.

The pain of this burn brought up something before my mind that had always troubled me. Hell. How could a God of infinite love confine even the most wicked people to a place of eternal torment? I also was regretful for my behavior with my good friend. So I figured that I better call Saul.

Not surprisingly, he instantly forgave me, assuring me it was no big deal, and he understood. I told him what I had been up to, studying and golfing. I told him about foolishly not wearing sunscreen in the south Florida sun. Then I hit him up with the new subject on my mind, being reminded of it every time I moved.

“Tell me something, Saul,” I began. “I don’t mean to sound irreverent, but how can a loving God cast people who don’t worship him into an eternally burning place of torment? Isn’t that the ultimate irony?”

“No, because it’s not true,” Saul said with an unexpected edge to his voice.

“Do I detect a little defensiveness?” I asked with a tone of voice that suggested a lighthearted jab.

“You bet you are,” he almost barked, taking me by surprise. “The concept of hell as a place is the most diabolical of false doctrines. Yet it seems like most of Christendom byes into this teaching that makes our loving God into a cruel monster.”

My toes curled, but I had to oppose him. “Look, Saul, I’ve been doing some extensive studying, and I’m afraid I have to beg to differ. As much as I hate to admit it, the Bible does indicate people go to hell.”

“Does it?” Saul asked with, I don’t know, an eerily calm voice. “Would you mind showing me?”

“I’ll be back tomorrow. Do you want to get together?”

“I’d be glad to.”

“I promise I won’t get mad this time,” I told him.

How he replied surprised me enough to pull my phone from my ear and look at it, albeit with an intrigued grin.

“I’m more concerned about me getting mad,” he had replied.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

SAUL SALLIE

CHAPTER 10

HE WHO HAS BEGUN A GOOD WORK IN YOU WILL COMPLETE IT (Philippians 1:6)

Mason swore at me as he pounded the wall, probably wishing it was my face. He cursed God, he cried, we talked, we hugged, he shoved me away and demanded that I leave his premises.

So I left, praying for something to say. But I had said enough, and gently shut Mason’s door behind me. My mind ran over our dialogue. I was confident that I had declared no Biblical error, but questioned if I had been insensitive in my declarations.

Even exhibiting truth in the wrong manner can be worse than saying nothing if your approach is not done in the right spirit. Case in point, but on a larger spectrum, take the religious leaders in Jesus’s day. They were zealous with their exactions of Sabbath keeping, making it a burden, rather than the delight God intended. At the same time, they were plotting the murder of God’s Son.

Now the opposite occurs. Religious leaders teach that the fourth commandment in particular is irrelevant, due to being saved by faith and grace. Yet the apostle Paul seems to disagree (See Romans 3:31). Or if they do believe in following it, they honor the day instituted by man and the traditions of humanity. The origins of which come from sun worship, rather than the day our Creator blessed and made holy after creation.

Truth is hard, and most people don’t want to be confronted with it. That’s why the patriarchs and prophets were hated, especially by kings before Christ day. Then God chose to walk among us as a human being, and humanity could only tolerate Jesus for thirty three years. Then they not only killed Him, but beat and tortured Him. Eleven of His twelve disciples were also put to death, and John, the one who wasn’t martyred, was exiled to the isle of Patmos, where he wrote the book of Revelation.

Yet Christianity gradually became more of a political movement rather than a way of life, especially during the fourth century when the Roman emperor Constantine superficially converted to Christianity. Then he made it a legal religion, bringing in many pagan rites to the Roman church. The most prominent among them was sun worship’s venerable day of the sun.

The official day this happened seems to be March 7, 321 AD. People were no longer to do business on Sunday, in honor of Sol Invictus, the Roman sun god, and also in honor of Christ’s resurrection, which occurred on the first day of the week. Yet you will not find anywhere in the Bible that we were to keep Sunday in honor of Christ’s resurrection. The apostles still kept the Sabbath of the fourth commandment. There are examples of this sprinkled between Acts chapters 13-17, years after Christ was crucified.

So the Sabbath was then transferred from Saturday to Sunday for most professed Christians. You might say they went from worshiping the sun god to the Son of God. But does God change? (See Malachi 3:6) Who has the right to change the ten commandment law of God? This is the ultimate presumption! Yet the Bible accurately predicted it centuries before it actually happened. The scriptures tell us that humans would THINK to change God’s law. But can they really? Even if most people follow the man made laws? (See what Jesus Himself says in Matthew 15:9)

Yet just as Jesus allowed his persecutors to take Him away and kill Him, when one word could have obliterated them, the all-powerful God who created us humans to have free will is allowing fallen human history to play out. He prophesied that this would happen. That they would think to change times and laws. (See Daniel 7:25 ) The Sabbath is both a time and a law. And all the world would wonder after the beast that played a part in this. (See Revelation 13:3).

This beast is the same religious-political power that put millions of true Christians to death during the dark ages. (This is also mentioned in Daniel 7:25). In 1798, this power received what appeared to be a deadly wound. (This is also mentioned in Revelation 13:3). But the deadly wound was healed. In other words, its prominence as a world power has been healing ever since. But I digress. More about prophecy later, and back to what happened with Mason and me.

“I thought you were my friend,” Mason had said in a low, menacing voice. His face was puckered as if he had just bitten into a lemon.

“What?” I shrugged, and tried smiling. I quietly continued, “Just because I insinuated that when Beth came to you, it was actually a demon?”

Mason took a step toward me, his hands like claws as if to strangle me. Then he groaned, turned toward the wall, and began pounding it with his fists like a child having a tantrum. Then he swore, taking the Lord’s name in vain a couple times before collapsing to his knees, weeping. I stood motionless after I put a gentle hand on his shoulder. I prayed as I waited, and wondered if I was too blatant with my remarks.

But Mason and I previously had had a Bible study on the state of the dead. It was before Beth “came to him”, and he seemed to be in agreement. But one of the problems with human nature is that often emotions and feelings overpower intellect and reason.

When Mason rose to his feet, he was calm. He even snorted a laugh and apologized. Apparently the pounding and crying temporarily removed his aggression. He surprised me further by wanting to go over the state of the dead in the Bible right then and there. Quite often believers need to be reminded, rather than instructed, so I eagerly complied.

We touched on the what makes us a soul. (Genesis 2:7) What happens to the soul when we die? (Ecclesiastes 12:7) That the body without the spirit is dead. (James 2:26) Jesus called the unconscious state of the dead sleep. (John:11-14) That spirit is simply the breath of life. After death, we will sleep in the grave until Christ returns. It will basically be the next thing a person realizes if they die in Christ, and we are told to comfort one another with this teaching. (1 Thessalonians 4:16-18)

“What’s the point of the resurrection if we are not dead?” I asked him. “Besides, haven’t you ever been in a deep sleep? Time becomes irrelevant. Even if you are dead a hundred years, the next thing you will realize after breathing your last breath is Christ’s second coming. Besides, you should be glad Beth isn’t hovering somewhere witnessing all the pain you’ve gone through.”

Mason seemed to be positively absorbing the information we were looking at so I brought up why understanding that the soul is not immortal was so important. “You see Mace, the big lie that the devil told Eve when tempting her with the Tree of Life was that she would not surely die if she ate of it. (Genesis 3:4) Satan wants us to believe the soul is immortal. He wants us to believe in magic if you please. That way when he performs miracles, we will buy into it. He will also appear as not only an angel of light, but Christ Himself.”

We looked at Revelation 13:13, 14, 2 Corinthians 11:14, and Matthew 24:23, 24. Then we discussed the resurrection again, and looked at Luke 20:35, 36, and Revelation 21:4, which talks about no more pain and suffering. It seemed everything went favorably with our little study, and we hugged. But then Mason back peddled.

“The thing is Saul, when Beth came to me, she knew things only Beth and Beth alone would know.”

“Of course she supposedly did,” I replied mildly. “Mace, we’re in a spiritual battle involving supernatural forces. Don’t you suppose that the fallen angels are aware of your every move? Thankfully our God is even more aware of our every move. That’s why we are admonished to bring every thought into the obedience of Christ.” (2 Corinthians 10:5)

Mason’s jaw tightened and he slowly shook his head.

“Look Mace, Ephesians 6:12 tells us that we wrestle with spiritual wickedness in high places. Read all of chapter six, from verse ten on. It’s all about putting on the whole armor of God.”

But Mason’s jaw tightened even further, and his face reddened. Dr. Jekyll left and Mr. Hyde was back. “How dare you say Beth is from spiritual wickedness in high places!”

“Mace, that’s not what I’m saying,” I pleaded.

That’s when he shoved me and demanded, “Get out of my house!”

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MASON MAXWELL

CHAPTER 9

LET HIM WHO THINKS HE STANDS TAKE HEED LEST HE FALL (1 Corinthians 10:12)

Saul is a humble man, and I know he is uncomfortable with this story being called ‘A Saint In Sin City.’  But if this story was based on me, it might be called ‘A Sinner From St. Paul.’ I’m not actually from St. Paul, but I spent over a year there. A woman I had some trouble with, and fell in love with, also resided there. The following sentences will describe how a man can be the subject of a moving, touching story one day, and an infamous scoundrel the next day.

Actually it was a few weeks, not literally the next day. Anyhow, I made national news by not only pitching a perfect game in the World Series, but crediting my dead wife for visiting me the night before the most important game of my life. I also declared that she was with me during every pitch.

Three weeks later, the husband of my former wife’s sister filed for divorce. The reason was infidelity. The adulterous situation had also conceived a child. I happened to be the father of this child. When the story leaked and rumors ran rampant, I was asked about it.

I owned it, trying to do the honorable thing over a dishonorable situation. I was annihilated in the media, which I suppose I deserved, even though there were extenuating circumstances. Now Saul was no longer the lone goat of that infamous World Series. Ironically, neither of our scathing criticisms applied directly to the action on the field.

Some may beg to differ, especially in Saul’s case. The argument against Saul was that even if he pitched an average game for him, we would have won that game seven, and therefore the Series. Saul’s earned run average was under one. The two pitchers that replaced him allowed four runs. The relief pitchers in in the last three innings held the opposition scoreless.

So it does seem that if Saul would have played, we would have won the series. But you are still going off of a ‘what if.’ My dilemma was simply appearing as a major hypocrite. Expressing love and giving credit to my dead wife for on field success, while at the same time participating in a secret relationship with Becky, my deceased wife’s married sister.

Would it help me look better if I told you we were only intimate one time while she and her husband were married? Also that it happened months after my wife died? Or that the nucleus of our bond was actually our mutual love for Beth? Or how we took comfort with each other in our shared loss? Or how we shared countless tears and a myriad of memories? Or how she has a similar personality as Beth, and clearly resembles her, drawing me to her like a thirsty man in the desert? Or that her husband was a controlling, abusive ogre, drawing her to me like a child frightened by a nightmare?

But the facts are the facts. I had intimate relations with another man’s wife. There are also these additional facts. During the first year of their marriage, no children were forth coming. When Beth suggested they get fertility tested, Bruce declared that she was the one that needed tested. He had been married before, had two daughters, and thus proving he was not impotent. Her tests came back sighting no problems. Yet pregnancy was still not forthcoming.

Then came that fateful few days Becky’s husband went on a business trip with his secretary, who doubled as his mistress. Becky and I usually communicated via technology. But her husband traveled for business every few weeks, and we took these opportunities to see each other in person when my schedule allowed.

Even on that significant day, I had no intention of moving beyond platonic. But we shared a glass wine together as we watched a beautiful sunset. Then I built a bonfire in her back yard. Then we had a second glass of wine. As we consumed it, we began to express our fondness for each other. We hugged, I put my arm around her and told her how delighted I felt in her company. We kissed, and continued kissing until it turned into something that conceived a child.

Although a great time was had by both of us, we agreed that we shouldn’t see each other anymore. We were both troubled by her marital situation. When she discovered that she was pregnant, the thought occurred to her that it could be mine. But due to her husband being a rather amorous man, she concluded that it was more likely his.

With great delight and a hope that a child would bring them closer together, she informed him that he would be a father. But instead of delight, she watched rage build in his eyes. Then she saw a fist coming at her. After she dropped to the floor, dazed, and her nose feeling like it was on fire, she heard the words, “Cheating whore.”

He picked her up by the hair, and punched her several times in the stomach declaring that he would help her miscarry the child, using numerous foul slang words as he did so. Fortunately, the embryo was not harmed. When his rage was satisfied, it was replaced by remorse, and a trip to the hospital.

Due to his wealth and influence, he convinced Becky to lie. She told the emergency room techs that she had felt ill and had fallen down the stairs. She later recalled to me how the hospital employees had looked at each other, knowing that’s not what happened.

In the aftermath, her husband became diabolically pleasant. He wanted to know if I was the father. She wanted to know what made him think it wasn’t his. It was then he confessed to a vasectomy after his second daughter was born. He had lied during their premarital days because he knew Becky wanted children. He was afraid she wouldn’t marry him if she knew, and there was no way he would get it reversed.

Then, probably out of revenge over being a cuckhold, he confessed with cruel delight his own infidelities. So, due to my fame, Becky’s husband made sure to bring me shame by making his divorce from her very public, citing the blame on us.

I understood why Saul seemed to go into hiding after he refused to play in that game seven of the World Series. Due to feeling hated, I laid way low myself. But there was a big difference between Saul’s situation and mine. He was lambasted because of his religious conviction, while mine was due to disgrace.

I was nervous when I met with Saul the first time after my scandal broke. Even though I was staying isolated, I wanted to see my friend. I also wanted to get what I thought would be a stern rebuke from him out of the way. It seemed as though the scorn from others would be like going downhill after a reprimand by Saul. But when we met up, there was no scorn, only friendly council. But it wasn’t in an area I was expecting.

“Hey Mace,” Saul greeted with a big grin as he entered my home. We fist bumped and shared a quick hug. “You sure went out of your way to not make me the goat of the Series.”

“What are friends for?” I joked back.

Saul was quite sympathetic as I explained my side of the story. He shared some scriptures about God’s forgiveness. The one that really stuck with me was when he quoted Lamentations 3:22-26. Then I brought up the nights when Beth visited me. I knew Saul was skeptical, so I wanted to set his opinion.

“You don’t believe Beth came to me, do you?”

Saul’s face was somber and serious when he quietly replied. “No, I don’t.”

“So you think I’m lying?” I asked testily.

“No, I believe that you believe you saw her.”

“So you think I’m crazy?”

“No, like I said, I believe you saw something.”

“Something?” I replied with a sarcastic laugh. “If you don’t think I saw Beth, who did I see?”

“You need to understand what the Bible teaches about the state of the dead,” he said calmly. “Then decide for yourself.”

I knew a little of what Saul believed. It was enough that I deduced where he was going with this. First I felt anger arise within me. But then my skin crawled as I felt fear replace the irritation. “You think I’ve been toyed with by the demonic.”

His jaw tightened, and he nodded, causing my anger to return.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MASON MAXWELL

CHAPTER 8

YOU WILL SHOW ME THE PATH OF LIFE (Psalm 16:11)

I don’t think I ever would have made it TO the major league, if it wasn’t for my teammate, Saul Sallie. I don’t think I ever would have made it IN the major league without my friend, Saul Sallie. I don’t think my relationship with Beth would have survived without Marcella Knight-Storm Sallie. And I wouldn’t have ever known Marcella if it wasn’t for Saul Sallie. Ironically, the media made us out to be enemies.

But that was definitely my fault. When things got tough, I got weak. I’m not talking about baseball, but I’m talking about fame. When Saul came under scrutiny, I turned politician and rode the fence. I tried to distance myself from Saul, while at the same time not throw him under the bus. It proved impossible.

In my defense, although Saul gave me plenty of food for thought with what the Bible actually taught, I wasn’t fully convinced. When it came to Christians in our clubhouse, the locker room was divided. The majority sided with the popular worldview that now prevails, and the minority sided with Saul. Once again, this is where I rode the fence.

The majority used human reasoning, coupled with the common good, and an occasional scripture thrown in for seasoning. Saul had a ‘Thus sayeth the Lord’ for everything he proposed. He also had chapter and verses at the ready. He won a lot of true hearted, honest seekers to his side. But the hard reality is, most people don’t want to think too deeply. And when they do, they are governed by emotion, passion, and the herd instinct.

It was hard enough for Saul when he first took his stand on the Biblical Sabbath, and refused play on it back in 2022. Now, years later, the Sabbath was a major political issue, and Saul was on the unpopular side of the subject. For it is currently one the hottest topics on the political spectrum that both the right and the left actually agree on.

The left want a mandatory day of rest due to climate change. The right want a day of rest because they believe in legislating morality. Saul, along with people like him, declare that genuine morality cannot be legislated. We are not talking civil law. For some moral laws fall under civil laws. Obviously you cannot allow killing, stealing, etc.

And yes, I now say WE. I’m sorry it took that fateful world series for me to change. I regret it went that far for me to stand with my friend, my brother in Christ. I’m ashamed to say when the dirt hit the fan for him, I back petaled and betrayed him. But when the manure hit the fan, I don’t know, the Holy Spirit seemed to give me a swift kick, waking me up to what was truly right and wrong.

Life is a strange trip. Saul is one of my closest, dearest friends. Yet I spent much of our early relationship both despising him, being at odds with him, and yet at the same time, marveling at him. A teammate is an odd thing. You are often both an ally and an enemy. You both go to battle together against other teams together, yet you compete with each other to be superior at your particular position. This pushing each other, if handled correctly, not only makes the team better, but ourselves individually as well.

It can be like that in Christian fellowship also. I don’t mean that it is or even should be a competition. But I discovered in the minor leagues that it is important who you associate with. Who you choose as friends can and will affect your own character. You need to be around people who will make you a better you. You need to fellowship with persons of like faith.

I’m ashamed to say, that if it wasn’t for the Godly example of Saul, I likely could have turned into a womanizing partier. To what extent that would have been, I don’t know, God knoweth. I shudder to think what might have been. Thank God the Holy Spirit ultimately drew me to Saul, rather than the careless throng that liked to drink, gamble, and visit establishments where woman danced and disrobed.

But in those early days, when Saul made what seemed to me a bizarre demand of the manager regarding his religious convictions, I questioned not only his spiritual soundness, but his sanity. He had just had the worst start of his life, and was yanked before the first inning was even over. Before he even had another opportunity, he declared that he would not be participating in any team activities on the Biblical Sabbath.

I had regarded Saul as an extraordinarily pious man. Like I said, he was a great example to me of how a Christian should behave. But when he pulled the ‘I can’t play on God’s Holy Day’ card, I thought him a fanatic. I also thought he was going to get sent back down to the lower rank, if not cut entirely. Yet something strange happened.

Hindsight is better than foresight for us mere mortals. I now believe God blessed his servant’s obedience. You might call it a coincidence, I know I did at first. But going forward from Saul’s demand that he would remember the Sabbath, to keep it holy, he pitched lights out. Through six innings anyhow.

Over Saul’s next three starts, he had no hitters going into the seventh inning. Game one, first pitch of the seventh inning, WHACK, home run. That was followed by a single, two walks, and double. First pitch, seventh inning of the second game, WHACK, down the third base line for a triple. Followed by two singles before he was pulled. First pitch of the seventh inning of the third game, WHACK, home run, and Saul was done for the day.

Thanks to analytics becoming rampant in modern baseball, the powers that be quickly noticed a trend with Saul. He was absolutely fantastic through six innings. Especially the sixth inning. In those first three starts, he struck out the side in all three. That’s why it was so odd that he seemed to drop off a cliff in the seventh.

Not long after that, during a spur of the moment solo Bible study, I happened along Exodus chapter sixteen. This is the chapter where God gave His people manna from heaven. They were not to gather any on the Sabbath, but He gave them a double portion on Fridays. My jaw dropped at the parallel I saw with Saul and his first three pitching starts after refusing to participate on Sabbaths. Three sixth innings, throwing nine strikes, and no balls. Just a coincidence? I never forgot this, and it was instrumental in my spiritual growth down the road.

Just to be clear. Although Saul feels blessed by God, it is his belief that God is aloof when it comes to sports. In other words, he doesn’t think God answers prayers for specific teams victories, or waves a divine hand to manipulate games. I guess that was proven true by the outcome of the World Series we lost. I’m not saying I disagree with Saul. However, I still find his extreme success after becoming a Sabbatarian curious to say the least.

As impressed as I was, even jealous to be honest, I reacted the way King Agrippa did in Acts 26:28, when he told Paul that he almost persuaded him to be a Christian. Only for me, I was almost persuaded to be a Biblical Sabbath keeper. But out of pride and inconvenience, I justified my position on the traditional sabbath, which I didn’t keep in the purest sense anyhow.

Saul seemed on a fast track to advancement by his performance. But like most in positions of power, the powers that be didn’t like someone seeming to buck the system or their authority. I guess if you look at it from their side, they didn’t want a whole group of Saul’s, demanding this and refusing to do that.

But Saul couldn’t have been happier and more content staying put, despite playing like a big league pitcher. For he was dually in love. His heart yearned for the lovely Marcella as the two proceeded on the journey to becoming one flesh. In addition to finding the love of his life, his soul found refuge and nourishment at Cotton Creek Cove church, and the Biblical treasures he was digging up left and right.

I don’t subscribe to the theory of evolution, but life does evolve and change. Early the next season, I was  promoted to double A in Wichita, even though Saul’s numbers were clearly better than mine. But two weeks later, he joined me. Upon the news of his promotion, he and Marcella had an impromptu wedding, and she moved to Wichita with him.

To show you what a shallow Christian I was, maybe still am, God knoweth, I wanted Beth to shack up with me. She refused, but still relocated to Wichita. However, she moved into the Sallie’s apartment with them. So I roomed with another teammate.

Halfway through the next season, I again was promoted to triple A. Once again, Saul had better numbers than me, but once again, he followed two weeks later. We spent the next year and a half playing in Saint Paul in our home state. We both played well enough that we thought we were in our home state for good. The next step was across the river to Minneapolis and the show, the majors.

We both made it to the bigs alright. But it wasn’t with Minnesota. The following season, a team moved to Los Vegas. Saul and I were involved in a trade that took us to the Sin City along with their new team. Although we wouldn’t be playing in our home state, it became a faster track to the big league. This pleased me, but disappointed Saul. But typical of him, he took things that didn’t go his way in stride.

It wasn’t long before Saul’s Sabbath commitment became a national side story. It wasn’t headline news yet, but it felt like it to me. Because of our association together, it seemed like I had to answer for him as much as he did himself. This is where I first began to really distance myself from him. Yet he never held it against me. This was a good thing, because the truth is, I needed him more than he needed me.

You see, not long after we made it to the big time, Beth and I married. But we wouldn’t make it to our first anniversary. She died suddenly one day, due to a brain aneurysm. I would have completely lost way without Saul’s guidance. I almost did anyway.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

SAUL SALLIE

CHAPTER 7

MAY THE LORD GIVE YOU UNDERSTANDING IN ALL THINGS (2 Timothy 2:7)

The next afternoon, after I had walked away from Marcella, I had the worst pitching performance of my short professional baseball career or even my amateur pitching career. I don’t ever remember being yanked from a game in the first inning before. But this happened for the first time on a beautiful Sunday. Weather wise that is. A day that up to that point I considered the Sabbath.

However, after my discourse with Marcella over the Biblical Sabbath of creation vs. the Sunday sabbath created by man, I stayed up late into the night with my Bible and concordance, looking up every text that had to do with the Sabbath. I concluded that Marcella was right. But what did I do with what I now intellectually believed, while at the same time my heart was troubled.

Sunday had always been my favorite day of the week. Unlike most teenagers, I loved going to church with my mother. And how would my devout mother react in regard to the actual Sabbath of the Bible? She took the Sabbath serious. She did most of her grocery shopping at Fareway because they closed on Sundays. Her favorite restaurant was Chick-fil-A because they were closed on Sunday. She loved to knit and sew, and bought all of her supplies at Hobby Lobby, a store closed on Sundays. She frowned at me playing baseball on Sundays.

I was beginning to see what Marcella had declared about seeking truth is like finding hidden treasure. There has been so much truth concealed in time and history. Even the most devout people get lazy and let the clergy tell them what to think.

We need to search things out for ourselves like the noble Bereans. (See Acts 17:11) Comparing spiritual things with spiritual, guided by the Holy Spirit. (See 1 Corinthians 2:13) The study of the Holy Bible is God’s best way to communicate with us. (See 2 Timothy 3:16) Let me get off the soap box, onto the pitcher’s mound, and on with the story of this fateful day.

So as I walked onto the baseball diamond, before a crowd of a couple thousand, my mind was not on the game. I was wondering what to do with the information I discovered from my own study that concurred with Marcella’s sentiments. I was also tired from lack of sleep. I couldn’t shut my mind off from the things I pondered.

Up to that point, Marcella had not missed a home game. I had given her two season ticket passes, so she could watch every home game with a person of her choice. But she wasn’t there that day. I was both relieved and disappointed, as strange as that may sound. This also added to my mental distractions. When I looked toward her seats, one was vacant and the other was occupied by Don Barrow.

Don was a member of Marcella’s church, and a former baseball player, who played up through the high school level. It was kind of funny. He and I talked mostly about baseball when I visited Marcella’s church. At the baseball park, we talked about life and God.

That horrible first inning, I allowed two runs to score, and still had loaded bases with only one out. When the Skipper came out to the mound, he extended a hand for me to give him the ball. After I handed it off, he patted me on the behind and said in a friendly voice, “It’s not your day, kid, you’ll get em next time.”

I walked to the dug out with a hanging head. There was a smattering of claps, mingled with a few boos. I stole a glance at Don. He was clapping, and wearing a sympathetic smile. When the game was over, we sought each other out.

“Tough break,” he told me, running a hand through his thin white hair.

“Yeah, but at least we won,” I said with a shrug. Then I added sarcastically, “No thanks to me.”

“Well, it is a team sport,” he said. “When one or more struggles, a good team picks them up.”

“Yeah, I guess, but pitching is a little like an individual sport in the middle of a team sport.”

“I see your point. But you also have the catcher and the defense behind you. Sort of like faith and fellowship. Your individual walk with God is the most important. But fellowship with like believers is the team. Personal, daily prayer, and devotion is spiritual food and exercise. But a meal with others often makes food more enjoyable. Interaction with others is the game if you please.”

What he told me was encouraging, but my mind was on overload sorting out life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. I simply nodded, then asked the one thing I needed to know in that particular moment, “Why didn’t Marcella come?”

Don looked at his feet, slid his hands in the pockets of his khaki shorts, and then looked at me. “The short answer is she feels she needs to give you space.”

“What’s the long answer?”

“It’s probably too complicated to put a timetable on.”

“Why?” was all I could manage, as I tried unsuccessfully not to scowl.

“For one thing, it seems you’ve been confronted with some profound spiritual truths,” he replied, and then paused for me to process.

I was already aware of his statement. “What’s another?”

“My wife noticed you leave yesterday with a less than pleasant demeanor. She went down to the creek and had a talk with Marcella.” Don paused, and looked at me with caution in his eyes.

“And?”

“It seems that you two are falling in love with each other, but you’re troubled by her past.”

He threw me a curveball. True, Marcella’s having been a sex slave troubled me, but for her sake.  I didn’t hold it against her. Holding in anger, I told him as much. “I don’t blame her even a little bit.”

“I know you don’t hold it against her, Son,” Don said sympathetically. “But you wouldn’t be human if you weren’t bothered by it. If you didn’t have feelings akin to jealousy.”

I realized I breathing hard. He was right. I hated the fact that other men had had their way with this sweet young woman I loved. And not just men, but vile animals that abuse minors, and treat human beings as objects for their perverted lusts.

“Her past is past,” I said quietly. “She’s a new creation, behold all things are new.”

Don put a sympathetic hand on my upper arm. His eyes were watery, and I had to look away or my own tears were sure to come. “Have you ever felt like Marcella has tried to push you away, while at the same time, letting you in?”

“Oh, yeah,” I replied with a non-humored chuckle.

“I know yours and my romantic situations are vastly different,” he told me. “Yet in a way, they are very similar.”

I stared at him wide eyed as I envisioned his old fashioned, grandmotherly wife. Dumbfounded, I asked, “Bonnie was a prostitute?”

Now he looked at me wide eyed, and then laughed. “No, no she wasn’t.”

“Well, how could your situation be similar to mine then?”

“Do you know how old Bonnie is?” he asked. I didn’t want to guess his wife’s age. What if I was off in the wrong direction? But Don persisted. “Come on, give me a number. I promise I won’t be offended.”

“Seventy,” I shrugged.

“She’s seventy-five. Now guess my age.”

“Seventy-two.”

“I’m fifty-eight,” he said frowning at me.

“Wow, sorry.”

Then he grinned. “I know, I know, my thinning hair along with the color don’t exactly make me look youthful.”

“So how is that similar to Marcella and me?” I inquired. “I’m only a year older than Marcella.”

“Let me explain,” Don said. “I was seventeen when Bonnie and I first met. I was a part time delivery boy at the company we worked at. She was a thirty-five year old married woman. Over the next year and a half, we got to know each other pretty well as friends.

Over that time, the crush I had on her only strengthened with every time I saw her. She was so beautifully wholesome looking, yet sexy in a subtle way. She usually wore skirts the fell just below the knees. But when she sat at her desk, they would hike up to just above the knee. When they had a split on the side, well, you can probably guess.

“She was the person I turned my delivery invoices in to. We would sometimes linger, talking, and I would steal glances at her legs. I got a good paying job as a machinist at one of the places I delivered to. About the same time, I heard she was getting divorced. One of the reasons for her marital problems was her husband’s infertility.

“It was right at Christmas time, and Bonnie and I were at a party. She was dressed as a sexy elf. Short skirt, low cut top, I had never seen her like that before. We were only professed Christians at the time, rather than practicing. So we drank quite a bit of spiked punched, and flirted. One thing led to another, we went back to her place, and I lost my virginity.

“I don’t know how deeply I was in love right then, but I was head over heels in lust. I wanted to keep seeing her, but because of our age difference, she wouldn’t give me the time of day. A couple weeks after our Christmas party encounter, I moved on.

“But three or four months later, she contacted me, and informed me that our encounter had conceived our first child. After that, we began a secret romance, and really got to know each other. And this is where we are similar, that being our helpless feelings about our ladies pasts.”

“I still don’t get where they are similar though,” I said.

“I don’t know, maybe they’re not,” he replied. “But hear me out and we’ll see.”

“Sure,” I responded, anxious to see where he was going with this.

“Obviously I knew she had been married,” he continued. “But the jealousy was in the details. The most profound aspect I struggled with, occurred with a simple comment she made several months before our first child was even born. She commented how bizarre it was that she had been intimate with her husband over a thousand times and never became pregnant. Yet she conceived with me the very first time.”

“Wouldn’t that fact, I don’t know, make you feel proud or something?” I tried.

“Did you get the part about intimate with another man over a thousand times? Just to be clear, and maybe this is TMI, but Bonnie is the only woman I, um, have gone all the way with. I can count on one hand the number of girls I dated. But nothing really happened with those brief relationships.”

“I see,” I replied. “So what you’re saying is when you and Bonnie got together, she was experienced and you were inexperienced. And young as Marcella is, she has been experienced, although not by choice, and I’m inexperienced.”

“Right, something like that,” Don said. “But my point in all this is patience. When you’re new to a relationship, it can bring insecurities, which lead to jealousies. But I want to leave you with this point. With every passing year, Bonnie’s previous relationship became more and more irrelevant. It hasn’t bothered me in years now. After four kids and decades of marriage, she even says it doesn’t seem like she was ever married to someone before me. And they were married fifteen years.”

I appreciated Don’s advice. One of my distractions was in fact coping with Marcella’s past. I didn’t know if I could do it even though I considered her, not only completely innocent, but a victim. Yet I sometimes selfishly obsessed about creepy guys touching her, defiling her. I didn’t understand my mixed feelings. Because spiritually, I saw her as a virgin that was as pure as the wind driven snow.

In all honesty, a part of me viewed Marcella’s and my religious differences as an easy out. So what drove me to study out the matter almost all night long? Especially when I knew I had to pitch the next day. It’s because I loved her, and wanted her in my life, even though another part of me wanted to run.

It’s funny that Don didn’t give me a pep talk about baseball. He also didn’t try to sell me on the Sabbath issue. God works in mysterious ways, and He also works through His servants. How else did the Barrow’s know what was going on with us? With me in particular.

When I was done conversing with Don, I wasted no time getting together with Marcella. The first thing I told her, after apologizing for my attitude the previous day, was, “You were right.”

“About what?” she asked with wide, innocent eyes. Man was she a wholesome beauty.

“About the Sabbath.”

“No I’m not.”

“You’re not?” I asked dumbfounded.

“The Bible was right,” she giggled.

I pulled her in for a tight hug, as we both laughed. I didn’t even care about the worst game of my life. After all, we won. So did I.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MARCELLA KNIGHT-STORM-SALLIE

CHAPTER 6

A WORD FITLY SPOKEN IS LIKE APPLES OF GOLD IN SETTINGS OF SILVER (Proverbs 25:11)

I had been so delighted when Saul had come to our fellowship, and so disappointed when he stormed off mad, leaving me alone at Cotton Creek. His departure left me with my own unhappy disposition. My first instinct was to confirm in my mind that I was unworthy of a decent man’s love. That my jaded past, coupled with the primitive Godliness I now lived by, was too much for him to handle.

I say primitive Godliness because even modern preachers seem to disregard Biblical truths. Even a moral, upstanding young man like Saul seemed to discount the ten commandment law of God. The one part of the Bible that our loving Heavenly Father wrote with his own finger. I suppose I should say that it is the fourth command that he, as well as most Evangelical Christians, have a problem with.

Yes, we are absolutely saved by grace. But for me and my church family, we keep the Sabbath out of love for our Lord. It is a delight (See Isaiah 58:13, 14). But my encounter with Saul still made me wonder why I understood this, and not others with a better education. Who was I? I was an eighteen year old woman with a lot of baggage. But it was my thirst and hunger for God’s word that had greatly reduced all of my luggage to just a carry on. Or did it?

I sat at the beautiful creek side and skimmed the cool, crisp water surface with my toes. I marveled at how fickle we humans are. I had repeatedly told myself I would need to go through life solo when it came to romance. So why did the prospect of losing Saul hurt so much? It tended to frighten me at how little we know ourselves.

But it calmed me when I let God take up the slack. When I prayed, God almost always spoke to me in His Holy Word, the Bible. But sometimes it was through a friend. Bonnie Barrow had come up on me so quietly, I jolted when she greeted me.

“I’m sorry, Honey,” she cooed. “I didn’t mean to startle you.”

“That’s okay,” I giggled. “I was so deep in thought, I wouldn’t have noticed you if you had bells on your toes.”

“It’s funny you should say that,” she said with a warm smile. “The night my Donald and I sort of became a couple, I was literally wearing bells on my toes.”

My mouth gaped open, and I stared at her in confusion. She smiled warmly, and her lovely green eyes sparkled. Bonnie was in her seventies, and her once long red haired was combined with white, giving it a lovely snowy rust color. She kicked off her pumps and put her delicate feet in the cool water next to mine. She chuckled at my expression. “Do you want me to explain?”

“You bet I do,” I laughed. “I didn’t know bells on toes was something that guys found appealing.”

“I doubt that they do. Bells on my toes just happened to be there the first time Don and I kissed.”

“Do tell,” I replied, already feeling my spirits lift. “But what do you mean by sort of becoming a couple?”

“Well, for starters, I was thirty six years old, and he had just turned nineteen.”

Did I hear that right? My mouth gaped open at bells on her toes, but now it fell open with this age difference. Although Don Barrow was fit for his age, with his thin white hair, I assumed he was also in his seventies. I insinuated such. “So, he’s in his early sixties?”

“He’s fifty eight, and I’m seventy five.”

“Wow,” I responded.

She arched an eye at me. “Would you be so surprised if it were reversed?”

“Actually, no. Why is that?”

She shrugged. “I don’t know, but that’s why it took me well over a year to accept his desire to marry me.”

“I always assumed that your four children were all his,” I told her. “Were you, maybe, married before?”

“I was married before, for sixteen years,” she answered. “But just to be clear, Don is the biological father of all four.”

“Wow, so you had kids into forties?”

“Yes, I was forty two when our youngest was born.”

“So tell me about the bells on toes then. How in the world did that lead to romance, and four kids?”

“It didn’t,” she laughed. “They just happened to be there.”

“Please explain,” I replied, laughing.

“Don and I met when he was seventeen,” she began. “He was in between his junior and senior year of high school. He got an afternoon delivery job at the bearing company where I worked as a secretary and bookkeeper. So we got know each other pretty well over the next year and a half. Oh my, he was a handsome young man. Not only good looking, with curly blonde hair, but smart, as well as athletic.

“I used to think time and again, if only I was half my age. I had no idea at all that he fancied me. I was a late bloomer, so I was kind of a nerd in high school. But as a thirtysomething woman, I guess I was sort of pretty, and a little sexy in a librarian sort of way.”

“I’d say very pretty,” I told her.

“Thank you, Dear.”

She shook her head, smiled whimsically, and circled a toe in the water. “So where do the bells on toes come into the picture?” I asked.

“Fast forward a year and a half,” she continued. “That December was an eventful one in my otherwise simple life up to that point. Don had left our company to become a machinist at one of the factories he delivered to. My divorce was finalized after sixteen years of marriage.”

“Why did you get divorced?” I interrupted. “If you don’t mind me asking, that is.”

“I think the root cause was my ex-husband was infertile, and he knew I dreamed of having lots of kids. But I rolled with the punches that were thrown us and suggested we adopt. But he kept putting it off, and gradually became more and more distant. Long story short, he left me for another woman.

“So that December when our divorce was official, I became quite bitter. I was also strangely relieved to be free of a man I once loved, but who ended up treating me, not just poorly, but was verbally abusive by times. So, newly divorced. Company Christmas party. My party animal co-worker talks me into dressing as a sexy elf with her. Our sales manager dressed as Santa. Little green dress, red Santa hat, green and red striped tights, and, you guessed it, green pointy shoes with bells on the toes.”

We both laughed. “So if Don left the company, how does he figure in with this outfit and the bells on the toes?” I asked.

“He left on good terms and was invited,” she said. “And I immediately could tell something shifted in our relationship. Between him leaving, the spiked punch, and my divorce, we became shamefully flirtatious with each other. Let me be clear though. I haven’t touched alcohol since that night, and even before that I rarely drank.

“So at one point, I pulled Don aside privately, and held mistletoe over my head. I asked him if he would mind being my first kiss now that my divorce was final. He was surprised at first, but then eagerly complied. Yada, yada, yada, I invited him back to my place.

“It was one of the most fun nights of my life, followed by one of the worst mornings. I still don’t understand why something that felt so good mere hours earlier, felt so bad just hours later. I guess that’s why sin is called the mystery of iniquity.”

“Are you talking about a hang over from the punch, or fornicating with Don?” I asked.

“Both,” she replied with a laugh. “He tried calling in the days following and left messages, but I never responded. In part because he still lived with his parents. But his last message came on New Year’s eve. He told me about a night club he was going to with friends. He said if I didn’t meet him there, he would stop bothering me. Drinking age back then was nineteen rather than twenty one.”

“Did you go?” I asked.

“Nope,” she said definitively. “As fond of Don as I was, I was sickened by the thought that I was old enough to be his mother. I actually went to school with his parents. We didn’t really know each other, but they were only one grade ahead of me. They actually married and had Don when they were right out of high school. Ultimately I think that gave them understanding for our situation.

“Anyway, Don didn’t call me again. Right when I thought I was starting to move on from my mistake with him, I discovered that I was pregnant. You want to talk about morning sickness. I was actually more sick over the situation. Thirty six years old, and pregnant out of wedlock by a guy barely out of high school.

“I decided to move. My company had an opening two hours away in Des Moines. I jumped at the chance to get away. I don’t know if it was the getting away, or the fact that I always wanted lots of kids, but  after leaving town, I actually became excited about the prospect of having my own baby. But I was oblivious to just how difficult being a single mother was going to be.

“I also couldn’t shake the conviction that Don had a right to know he was going to be a father. As much as I dreaded it, I called his house. Paranoia is a funny thing. People don’t usually know your stuff as much you build it up in your head. Don’s dad simply informed me that Don was living in an apartment and gave me his number.

“So I called Don. He was happy to hear from me. I had intended to just tell him about our baby over the phone, but then felt that the news I was about to give him was best done in person. He agreed to meet me at his apartment that weekend. To my surprise, once the shock wore off, he was actually excited, and asked me to marry him.

“I flatly turned him down, and told him because of our age difference, there was no way I would ever marry him. But I did fall prey to his intimate advances. He began driving to Des Moines twice a week. On Wednesdays he would go to Lamaze classes with me, and then he came again on the weekend just to spend time with me.

“Don was there for the birth of our baby girl. When my maternity leave was over, I had found an excellent daycare for my child with a co-worker’s grandmother. Don religiously came every weekend. Although I had found being a mostly single mother tedious, Don and I were careless, and when little Abby was only five months old, I became pregnant with her brother.

“I was mortified at first. Don was excited, and once again asked me to marry him, and move back to Cedar Rapids. At first, I wanted nothing to do with that. The church I had grown up in had shunned me, and my own family had given me the cold shoulder. But Don convinced me to meet his parents, and let them meet their granddaughter. They couldn’t have been nicer, and more accepting of our unusual relationship.

“Then there was a second element. Don had gotten to know a UPS driver through his work. I think you know him, Jake Weston.”

“Of course,” I replied happily. “Jake and his wife Mary Gold are pillars of the church.”

“Right, well, he invited Don to this church,” she continued. “Only it was located in downtown Cedar Rapids at the time, instead of out here in the countryside. Long story short. As passionate a lover as Don was, he told me he would no longer be fornicating with me outside of marriage. He held true to his word, and this impressed me. It also made me miss him, even when he was with me, as strange as that may sound.

“God works in mysterious ways, Marcella. An opportunity came for me to transfer back to Cedar Rapids, and I took it as a sign. I also felt accepted by his family and his church, even though my own had rejected me. So I joined his family through marriage, and his church through baptism. And, we decided to keep making babies as long as my biological clock kept ticking.”

“Wow,” I responded. “Did you ever make peace with your family?”

“Yes and no,” she shrugged. “We did make peace I suppose, but things were never the same. My parents and brother are all deceased now anyway.”

We were silent for a minute before she spoke again. “I’ve witnessed a lot of romance in my life, Honey. I don’t know this young man Saul very well. But from what I’ve seen, he reminds me a lot of my Donald. So I just wanted to come down and tell you a tale of impossible love. Whether he is troubled by the plain Bible truth we here at Cotton Creek live by, or whether he is bothered by your past. My instinct tells me he will come around.”

“You promise?” I asked with an arched eyebrow.

She looked earnestly at me for a long moment before replying, “No.”

Despite myself, I laughed. Then she smiled and put her arm around me, and gave me an affectionate squeeze. My eyes filled with grateful tears. I was so thankful for my church family. No matter what happened with Saul, I was loved from multiple directions.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

MARCELLA KNIGHT-STORM-SALLIE

CHAPTER 5

FORSAKE FOOLISHNESS AND LIVE, AND GO IN THE WAY OF UNDERSTANDING (Proverbs 9:6)

How strange. It was love at first fight, rather than love at first sight during my early days with Saul Sallie. But it wasn’t actually a fight, but a heated exchange. And forgive me, but all of the heat from our verbal exchange came from Saul.

However, my point is, it was after Saul stormed off that I felt a strange sense of loss and loneliness. I had only felt this way once before, and it was when I was taken away from my drug addicted mother as a little girl. So I was confused at first. Then I realized that I was in love with Saul, and didn’t want to lose him, even if it was only as friends. However, my love of the truth, my love for Jesus, was far more important to me than romantic love.

Until Saul, I never even considered the possibility of romance. I had been the victim of human trafficking, and as a minor, forced into prostitution. So although I am physically attractive, my psyche was made ugly. I was severely, and I thought, permanently damaged. But never underestimate the healing power of the Lord Jesus. Nor God’s ability to put the right people into one’s life path.

It was really odd to me. The fact that Saul and I are both Christians is our strongest bond. Yet it was spiritual differences that seemed to be the biggest divide early in our relationship. Saul and I had hit it off so well from the beginning, and I could tell his interest in me went beyond my appearance. My interest in him also went beyond the physical.

Here is an example of what I mean. One of Saul’s teammates who didn’t like him, I’ll refer to him as Bruce, called us the beauty and the beast. Now Saul is not movie star handsome, but he is definitely not homely. As a matter of fact, you can see the family resemblance between Saul, his Uncle Seven, as well as my adoptive father, Brock Storm. Now these are a couple good looking men. Saul just has a bigger nose and a weaker chin. But his combination of gentleness mixed with masculine confidence, I have come to find irresistible.

Bruce was movie star handsome, yet had, forgive me, a rather ugly personality. I know this firsthand because he unsuccessfully tried to woo me away from Saul three times. On his third strike he even got very crude with a verbal assault that would easily be considered sexual harassment.

I didn’t tell Saul about Bruce contacting me until he was out of our lives. But the deliberate barb in our hearing, I couldn’t ignore, even though Saul patiently and impressively did. Saul’s teammate and friend Mason Maxwell also overheard the insult. When I had a chance, I asked Mason about Saul’s relationship with Bruce.

“Mason, can ask you something?” I began.

He looked puzzled at first. I rarely had said anything to him before, and never apart from Saul. But then he shrugged and said, “Sure.”

“Does Bruce bully Saul all the time?”

Mason chuckled. “You mean try to bully Saul.”

“Yeah, I know Saul tries to ignore him, but it must be hard.”

“So Saul must not have talked to you about what happened yesterday?”

“No, that barb about the beauty and the beast was two days ago.”

Mason chuckled some more. “Leave it to Saul not to brag.”

“Brag about what?” I inquired with a puzzled frown.

“Yesterday he put Bruce in his place, and then some,” Mason replied with a satisfied grin. “And it wasn’t the beauty and the beast comment. Bruce simply called him Howard, you know, after the ‘Big Bang Theory’ character.”

“I told him he should cut his hair,” I interrupted. “It’s that early Beatles hair style, with his, well, kind of big nose, that got him the nick name Howard.”

“It’s funny you should mention the Beatles,” Mason said. “Because I always thought Saul looked more like Ringo than the actor that plays Howard.”

“I don’t know which Beatle is which. I just know they had the flopping brown haircuts.”

Mason fiddled a few seconds with his phone and found a picture of the iconic 60’s rock band. It didn’t take long to notice the one with the biggest nose. I pointed to one of the three that wasn’t Ringo. “Which one is that?”

“Paul.”

“I think Saul looks more like Paul, only with a bigger nose.”

“Maybe,” Mason shrugged, and pocketed his phone. Today’s technology, right at our fingertips, and small enough to put in a purse or pocket amazed me. It made me think of Daniel 12:4, which tells us in the time of the end, knowledge shall increase. It also tells us that humanity will run to and fro. Wow, you don’t see that on the interstate highways, do you?

Another thing occurred to me. Wasn’t Paul, I mean the Beatle, not the apostle, referred to as the cute one? Leave it to humanity to say Saul looked like Ringo because of his big nose, rather than Paul, whose eyes resembled Saul’s. But I needed to stop pondering, and get back on point. “So tell me what happened, Mason. I find it hard to believe that Saul would retaliate over being called a name.”

“He didn’t,” Mason explained with a mischievous smirk. “Somebody asked Saul why he puts up with Bruce. Only he used rather colorful language.” Saul snorted a laugh, and continued. “So Saul calmly replied, and I know he was just being genuine, that if Bruce can live with himself twenty four-seven, I can tolerate being around him the little bit of the day that I am.

“So Bruce goes off! He starts swearing at Saul, gets in his face, and shoves him. Saul calmly, but sternly, told him not to ever touch him again. Bruce puts his hands on his hips, and mockingly says the sticks and stones thing. Saul, once again calm and composed says, “Correct, only it will be your bones breaking if you try to get physical with me.” Bruce says, “Is that right?” Right before he shoved Saul hard on the chest.

“But the next thing we know, Bruce is on his knees, and Saul has his wrist and hand contorted in an unnatural position. Bruce howls in pain, and Saul says, “You don’t believe me?” Bruce says, “Yes, yes, please, yes.” Saul says, “Are ya gonna mind your own business from now on?” Bruce says, “Yes, yes, absolutely.” Saul lets him go, and then goes about his own business as if nothing happened.”

“Wow,” was all I could manage. I stared at Mason dumbfounded for several seconds before asking. “So what did Bruce do afterwards?”

“I’ve never seen anyone more humbled, and contrite in my life,” he said, and then chuckled. “We’ll see if it sticks.”

Later, when Saul and I were alone, I gave him ample time to tell me about the incident with Bruce, but he didn’t. So I asked him about it. His face fell, and his jaw tightened. He quietly said, “I didn’t know what else to do. He was harassing me more and more, but it was only words. When he put his hands on me, I felt like that crossed a line.”

He shook his head sadly. So I told him, “Look Saul, you didn’t do anything wrong. You didn’t actually break his wrist, did you?”

“I wanted to,” he said, and shook his head in self-disgust. “I don’t recall the apostles retaliating with violence.”

“It’s not like he didn’t deserve it,” I tried. “And is twisting an arm really all that violent?”

“It was just his wrist.”

I almost said that the wrist is part of the arm, but it would defeat the purpose of helping him forgive himself, even though I didn’t feel he needed it. So I said with an encouraging tone, “See.”

“Yeah, well, I don’t know how I’m gonna face everyone at the team’s services Sunday.”

“So come to church with me tomorrow on the real Sabbath,” I teased. We had already had a few brief discussions about the Sabbath, among other things.

“Ya know, I think I will,” he replied cheerfully.

“Great!” I responded happily, hooking my arm through his, and leaning my head into his shoulder.

He kissed the top of my head, and I closed my eyes contented, and hopeful. But twenty four hours later, church would be over, and I would be watching him storm off, wondering if I would ever see him again.

A SAINT IN SIN CITY

SAUL SALLIE

CHAPTER 4

FOR THE WORD OF GOD IS LIVING AND POWERFUL AND SHARPER THAN ANY TWO EDGED SWORD PIERCING EVEN TO THE DIVISION OF SOUL AND SPIRIT (Hebrews 4:12)

I wouldn’t call it a fight, but the first disagreement Marcella and I had was over one of the ten commandments of God. Although I did end up going away mad, we reconciled the next day. When I first began my stay with Uncle Seven, I quickly learned that my extended family’s main day of worship was Saturday. I didn’t think much of it until the nature of my relationship with Marcella turned romantic. Up to that point, I was fellowshipping with other Christian teammates, led by the team chaplain.

There was no yelling, or anything mean or unkind said between Marcella and me, even though it seemed like it at the time. Inside I was upset, even very angry. There were a multiple of factors involved. Primarily that our beliefs weren’t in harmony. Secondarily, pride, because her reasoning was, well, more reasonable than mine. Third was that I felt like her beliefs, their beliefs, were straining out a gnat and swallowing a camel. (See Mathew 23:24) I also suspected that they were a cult. Lastly, was tradition. I had been a strong believer in loyalty and tradition. I still do in its proper place.

But when tradition came up during our discourse, and she quoted Mark 7:7, I felt like she was getting too personal. It was also my first real lesson on how truth cuts to the core. I had thought myself a righteous dude. But on future examination, I had a form of Godliness, but was denying the power.

It all happened on a beautiful Saturday afternoon, right after I went to church with my extended family for the first time at Cotton Creek Cove Fellowship. After a potluck lunch, Marcella and I strolled down to Cotton  Creek, after which the church was named. I was troubled in spirit as I sorted out the new perspectives I was shown in the Bible. Things I had read before, but did not see.

The stream of water rippling over rocks, and the canopy of trees was beyond description. It was incredibly beautiful and peaceful. It felt wrong to feel so agitated there, but I did. I was ready to lay into Marcella about her church denying grace, being legalists, and putting their parishioners under the old covenant.

I had taken a deep breath, and then both a sigh and a fake chuckle. “You know, you have a friendly church and all, but it seems you all fail to understand grace.”

“We do?” she asked mildly. Her wide expressive eyes helped to relax me in my task of setting her straight. “How?”

“Your pastor is putting you under the law,” I told her.

“How’s that?”

“Well, the very first thing, the service started by putting the fourth commandment up on the screen, and you all read it.”

“Yeah, what’s wrong with that?”

“Well, nothing, but, I mean, you guys take it too seriously. I mean, what if, say, all doctors and nurses refused to work on the Sabbath?”

She giggled, and it was both cute and annoying. “There are exceptions for situations such as that. But as far as regular labor, or shopping…”

“The New Testament clearly tells us we are saved by grace through faith,” I interrupted.

“It sure does,” she agreed with an enthusiastic smile, disarming me even more, right before stabbing me with truth. She pulled out a small New Testament that she always seemed to carry. It wasn’t much bigger than a deck of cards. She opened it, found a passage of scripture, and handed it to me. “Read Romans 3:31.”

“Do we then make void the law through faith?” I read aloud. “’Certainly not! On the contrary, we establish the law.’ Okay, alright, now you read chapter four, and verse four.”

“Now to him who works,” she read. “The wages are not counted as grace but as debt.”

“Well?” I asked after she read it.

“Well what? I agree with the text. Are you insinuating that I don’t love God?”

“No, of course not.”

She frowned, puzzled. “Then why did you show me that passage of scripture?”

I scratched my head, a bit puzzled myself. “I guess to show you that were not saved by works.”

“Of course we’re not. I obey God because I’m saved, not to be saved,” she explained. “Jesus said that if we love Him, keep His commandments (John 14:15). Are you familiar with the Bible verse that says, having a form of Godliness, but denying the power thereof?” (2 Timothy 3:5)

“Yes.”

“The passage you just shared reminds me of that, because what it is actually implying, is works without love. You see, you could say, a form  of Godliness that denies the love thereof.”

“Okay, good point,” I admitted before getting to the heart of the matter. “But why be a stickler about the seventh day Sabbath, when the vast majority of Christendom keeps Sunday?”

“When has the majority ever been right in spiritual matters?” she asked sadly. “Were they right in Noah’s day? Were they right when Daniel’s three friends refused to bow down? Were they right during the dark ages? Most importantly, were they right when our precious Savior, Jesus Christ, was crucified?”

“Okay, fair point. But why Saturday instead of Sunday?”

“Sunday keeping became prominent when Constantine made Christianity a legal religion in the fourth century. But Saturday is actually the Biblical Sabbath, established at creation, and written in stone by God’s own finger at Mount Sinai.”

“But Marcella,” I said with a humorless chuckle. “We keep Sunday in honor of the resurrection.”

“We do?” she frowned, and then handed me her little Bible. “Can you show me in the Bible?”

“Not off hand,” I replied lamely, as she thumbed through the onion skin pages to the book of Acts. She showed me several passages where the apostles still kept the Sabbath, obviously after Jesus was resurrected. I wasn’t angry just yet, but very frustrated, and demanded. “What difference does a day make? We should pray and worship God daily.”

“Yes we should, and I do. But there is a specific day God commanded us to remember if we love Him. There is one day, one period during the weekly cycle, that He blessed and made holy. And that’s from sundown Friday to sundown Saturday.”

“See, that’s another thing,” I tried. “The world, not just Christendom, recognizes midnight to midnight as the daily cycle.”

“That’s insignificant,” she shrugged. “There are plenty of passages about not being conformed to what the world does. Just look at 1 John 2:15-17 for one example.”

“But Marcella, look at all the Godly men that kept Sunday. Reformers like Martin Luther, Tyndale, Wycliffe, and modern preachers like Billy Graham. Are you gonna tell me they are lost?”

“Of course not, Saul. Obviously I don’t know their hearts or how much light they have had. But I do know the light I’ve had, as well as a little understanding of history along with prophecy.”

“Oh, I suppose you have the gift of prophecy,” I said sarcastically, and instantly regretted it. Yet she seemed slightly amused, rather than offended.

“I don’t, but multiple Bible authors did,” she replied. “And with the guidance of the Holy Spirit and prayer, we can understand the prophetic books.”

“Oh, so you’re gonna tell me you understand Daniel and Revelation?”

“As well as someone with my experience can,” she shrugged. “So yes, I feel I have a pretty good grasp of them.”

I snorted and shook my head. “I’ve been taught that they were futuristic books that can’t be understood yet.”

“I’m sorry to say, you were misguided,” she replied mildly. Okay, now I was now becoming quite angry. “Most of what is taught in Daniel and Revelation is now history. Only the last few chapters of Revelation are yet to be fulfilled.”

“How do you get history out of all that symbolism?”

“It’s there, you just have to put the puzzle together with, like I said, prayer and the Holy Spirit.”

“I wasn’t misguided, nobody really knows. How can they? The closest thing to figuring it out is the ‘Left Behind series.’

She smiled sadly, hung her head briefly. “I’m afraid the ‘Left Behind’ series is misguided. There is no secret rapture. I know the word rapture isn’t even in the King James concordance. The Bible says Jesus comes back with a shout, a great noise, and every eye will see him. Not a select few, or even half, or whatever they claim.” (See 1 Thessalonians 4:16-18 and Matthew 24:30, 31)

“You just made my point, no one can understand it?”

“Then why does Revelation 1:3 say blessed are they that read the words of this prophecy?”

I didn’t know. I didn’t even know how discombobulated I was getting, but I felt the need to get off discussing prophecy. “Look we’re getting off topic. Now I know you haven’t met my family, but my mother, and my mother’s family, are some of the most Godly people you could ever meet, and they kept the Sabbath. They didn’t work or shop on Sunday.”

“Sabbath is not Sunday,” she replied. “Sabbath is the seventh day of the week. Other languages confirm this, as well as definitions. Look it up. Sunday is the first day of the week.”

“Don’t nitpick on terminology. Tradition is clear that Sunday is God’s day of rest.”

She aimed a sweet smile at me. In the moment, I felt it was a condescending smile. But her mild manner of speaking should have told me otherwise. “Jesus Himself said, ‘In vain they worship Me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men.’ (Mark 7:7)

I fought to control my raging hostility, and my voice probably sounded sinister as I forced myself to calmly say. “Oh, I see, my family and me worship God in vain. That’s not judgmental.”

“No, it’s not meant to be,” Marcella said with wide, startled eyes, as she reached out and gently touched my arm. “I believe God only holds us accountable for the light we have, know, and understand.”

“Well, you haven’t shown me any light,” I said testily. “Because you’re enshrouded in darkness… I’m outta here.”

As I began to briskly walk away from her, I expected, even hoped she would call out. But she didn’t. As I had spoken, I felt justified by my mean spirited words. But ten seconds later as I stole a quick glance back. Her sad countenance as she watched me go already began to break my heart. But more importantly, her words during our conversation began to open my eyes to real truth. It would lead me into a closer walk with the One called, the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Jesus!